I awoke from slumber, eyes teary, mind weary and my back dreary…is that word, dreary, ehh who cares, what time is it?

  I pulled out my phone 2:31pm, oh shite, I missed my lecture, it wasn’t mandatory at least not like I went to them anyways, well I did at the start, I tried but it didn’t really click, so I decided after awhile I needed a mental health…month.

  I hobbled my way out of bed after an hour of watching viewtube. I wonder what was in store today, ahh, dammit, I stepped on a cup of half-eaten noodles on the floo, dammit, I’ll clean it later.

  Hopping from place to place avoiding the numerous clothes and shoes spread throughout my apartment I made my way to my computer, well more like a monitor with my laptop plugged in, it wasn’t some godly set up but I prided myself on beating kids with only 30fps at whatever shooter I was hooked on at the time.

  As my computer booted up I grabbed the half-eaten box of cereal. They were these nougat bit thingies with chocolate inside, I also cracked open an energy drink while I was at it. I took a handful of the cereal and lobbed it in my mouth, wiping the dust from my fingers on the side of my pants.

  What you expect me to get my mogitech mouse dirty, that thing wasn’t cheap.

  And so the gaming session began

  Around hour three, my phone went off, who could that be, my mom

  Hey Alex , just wanted to check in that everything is going okay, remember if you have any problems tell me, hope you had a great day

  She says that but if I do I get yelled at for not trying and dad gets all quiet..blah blah blah, you know parents, I know she means well but ugh, that’s enough of that back to gaming.

  Grrrrrrrrrr

  Damn stomach, what can I eat? I walked over to the kitchen, I swung open the fridge, empty, next cupboard, nope even more empty. Should I get takeout?

  No, don’t have the budget for that, need to save up for New horizon 3, it was a mmo game based on dungeons and goblins, can’t wait for it to launch next week.

  Looking at my options, it looks like I need to go on a side quest today, to the store, my eyes darted around, eyeing my hooding on the ground, sniff, passable, I threw on the hoodie, grabbed my wallet and left on my great adventure to the convenience store across from my place, real hero stuff right there.

  Inside the store, I grabbed only the essentials, energy drinks, instant noodles and the odd sweat here and there.

  The usual, I walked over and placed my items on the counter, “Good evening sir”, the said

  I couldn’t look up, it was one of my classmates, she worked part-time here from what I could gather, please don’t notice me, I handed the cash and left.

  Feck, so she works here after 7, good to know, I won’t be coming here at these hours then.

  Walking back home, I entered the elevator, maybe I should’ve just combed my hair, it was curly so if I didn’t I looked like a maniac clown or something, especially when it was this long.

  Enough of that, time to enjoy the spoils of war, I entered my kitchen, boiled some water, and ate dinner, preparing myself for the next battle ahead, the limited event in Alpha myth, If you obtain a 1000 kills you get a skin from an anime I really like, I loaded my aim trainer, warmed up and the grind began.

  BEEP BEEP BEEP, crap, that was my alarm, that is not good, why was it not good, well, it was 9am, I had a mandatory attendance class at 10, dammit, I forgot about that, I only manged to get 500 kills, feck me, I thought I could do it.

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  What you expected me to go outside without drinking one of these, I chugged the drink, grabbed my backpack, and went out into the world, my campus was about a 15-minute walk so it wasn’t too strenuous of an endeavour.

  Damn sun, it was really bright, a ‘normie’ would have enjoyed it but us gamers, we live for the cold days, where it didn’t stop raining, nothing beats those gaming sessions.

  While lamenting about my favorite pastimes, I soon arrived on campus, the institute of technology and science, I was at the computer science wing, the plan was simple get a remote job and play video games in my free time, that was proven to be a rather troubling idea of mine but no worries I’ll cross that bridge when it arrives.

  Where was that building again, ummm, ahh I remember, the computer across the the park by the cafe, okay, location set, plotting route, route found, lets do this.

  I was passing alot of people, I wouldn’t say I was introverted by nature, I could talk to random people if I needed to, I mean I was on good terms with my classmates but there was something about crowds that just made me uncomfortable.

  I popped my hood on and muscled through, soon I found myself in front of the computer room, entering I saw a few familiar faces, but no one I really ever talked to at length, guess I’ll just sit in the corner.

  I placed my backpack down, it was a pain to carry around since one of the straps broke off, I could by a new one but that money was better spent on a video games or takeout or whatever.

  The lecturer walked and began his usual whatever the feck he was speaking about, doesn’t matter I only got 20 days left.

  After the lecture ended I exited and mean my… I guess friend Rick, “Hey man how’s it going”

  “No problem, you”, he responded

  “Amazing as always”

  I hate him, everything about him, his smart, really smart. He complained about a 98.5 on a test out of a 100 me I score 5 points. Get this, he also has a girlfriend, car and good family life, sure he studies but he always hanging out with her on the weekends. In short I am jealous no I’m feckin envious me, well let’s just say everything has gone to shite since I came to this damn uni but that’s another story

  “Hanging out with Jenna this weekend?”, I asked him

  “Yes, where going to one of the nearby towns springs and going to grill with daphne and Vihn aswell, you coming”, those we 2 of our classmates, one if which I tried to ask out, last thing I want to do is be there

  “Nah, I’m going hiking with some friends, thanks for the invite though”, I lied

  “But I gotta get going so cheers dude”, I said wanting to leave this conversation as quickly as possible

  I popped my earphones in and heard a ding “Low power”, shite I left them running in class, that’s not good, Shite I turned the corner…”I’m done”

  I feel like shite, utter shite, I try and try and try again, and you now what I still failed, no matter what I still fail, “Uni is the best time of your life they said”

  “Fuck no”

  “Nothing, absolutely nothing has gone right since I came to this goddamn place”

  “Ha, ha, ha”, I’m laughing and crying how amazing, if someone saw me now they’d think I was a serial killer

  How many days till June?

  Just 10, then it’s over, I can survive that, no problem

  Okay time to to get up

  I started walking back to my place, how many attacks is that today?, 3rd one I think, they mostly stopped once I decided to make it june, life is great, just feckin great.

  Soon I made it home, switched on my computer and there she was, that goddamn email

  Sorry but we regret to inform you have not been acceptedI

  I must have read that email over 100 times since I got it, the best part is one of my fellow classmates got it in, why he know someone at the admissions office, didn’t matter that I came to all my classes, attended exams and everything where he just stopped after a month, nope I just wasn’t lucky, I’m so done.

  I mean I tried to pass I really did but no, it didn’t matter l still failed.

  Same thing as high school, different toilet same shit.

  I felt my breathing calming, okay back to normal, time to play some video games.

  Cue me mentally tuning out every problem life has thrown at me.

  Beeeeep, beeeeep, beeeep

  “It’s the next day, 9 days left, gotta go buy supplies for the big day”