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Chapter 30 - Husk of Ones Self

  Intro Song: / ERE - Juan Karlos

  / Heart-Shaped Box - Nirvana

  "Y'know...?"

  "I never expected you to turn..."

  "Out of everybody..."

  "Out of all of us..."

  "Who knew it'd be you...? Hmm?"

  ...

  "Shion..."

  ...

  The greatness was swirling all around them...

  A thickness so hard to grasp and get over...

  The dark bellows of the tunnels that governed their 'safety'...

  The rotting scent of lives taken-

  The smell they've grown accustomed to...

  All their lives...

  The puddles of bodily fluids... that they were stepping on-

  Sighs that escaped their lips-

  Their fingers twitched-

  They couldn't see anything...

  They could only feel-

  And what they DID feel...

  ...

  Was a long time coming...

  They...

  They knew this was it...

  ...

  Only one of them would arise out of this...

  The past...

  Was hanging over them-

  Their lives flashed right before them-

  Like the slideshow of thick aging film over an aging projector-

  With a ripped cinema screen...

  One of them raised their hands, with a finger pointing out-

  "It's time..."

  "Hmm hmmm" the great mist beckoned and agreed with her...

  "Your silence was always such..."

  "It always felt like it was going to crush us..."

  "After all this time..."

  "Did we even mean anything to you...?"

  "Hmm...?"

  This question just kept on lingering over the air, mixing in with the haze-

  A few gasps and let out sobs were heard-

  This was the only answer... she needed...

  "I'm so sorry... Tei-chan!"

  "I don't want to do this..."

  "But I've got to..."

  A dryness filled her throat...

  Tei just kept on hanging by her familiar aura that swirled around them-

  It felt cold... but it felt like home...

  Like family...

  "Then do what you've got to do already..."

  "I'll see you on the other side..."

  "Shion-chan..."

  "I..."

  "You've always been like a sister to me-"

  ...

  SLASH!

  ...

  "I know..."

  ...

  And so... it started...

  …

  / Harvey - Her’s

  "Hey!"

  "Wake up already!"

  "H-huh?"

  My vision was only starting to return to me-

  The sunlight, an attack to the senses-

  But the wind...

  It was so... calming...

  It kept on whispering these sweet lullabies into my head-

  I...

  I wished it would never end...

  But... he...

  He kept on snapping his fingers at my face, like I was the biggest dunce of them all!

  It... felt...

  Comforting...

  But it was still-

  "Stop it already!!!!!"

  "God! Are you annoying!!!!!"

  He just mimicked me with his stupid ass muppet voice, trying to mock and impersonate me further-

  It totally ruined the perfect day that surrounded us...

  "Come on! You big wuss!"

  "We've got work to do!"

  I just laid my back further into the tree stump I find myself leaning over, the leaves capturing this marvelous looking green haze of sunlight, hitting my eye-

  I sighed and closed my eyes-

  Believing that none of this was happening-

  "Man, stop being all Miss Sensitive! All of a sudden!"

  He forcefully ripped me out of my trance and planted me on top of the ground like I was a turnip or something!

  "See! This is why I hate you now! "

  "WHAT????"

  "Don't you 'WHAAAAT' me!"

  "A girl is trying to relax here! Stop being such a loud imbecile for once, would you?!?"

  Despite what I was saying...

  My heart kept on fluttering and longing for him...

  I don't know if he felt it...

  But...

  My lips turned over, my sweetness...

  I could taste it with my lips-

  The great blue skies above us, his pouting cute face...

  My cheeks...

  Getting all tangled...

  I rubbed it and faced my back in front of him...

  He just kept on cursing at me...

  But I...

  ...

  I wouldn't have it any other way...

  ...

  So...

  What changed...?

  This war?

  Our newfound status and responsibilities as the 'Great Leaders'?

  Cause it...

  It felt like we were...

  Slowly distancing from each other...

  Our jokes were slowly starting to dissipate...

  We no longer liked each other...

  He always scoffed at the presence of me...

  Just a while ago...

  He...

  We... tried to kill each other...

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  And yet...

  My eyes were always sneaking glances at him...

  My heart longs for his touch...

  His... lips...

  His...

  Love...

  And yet...

  And yet...

  Why am I here today...?

  So far from him...

  So detached from him...?

  About to...

  About to...

  Leave him...

  Never to return...

  ...

  "PLEASE DON'T DO IT SHION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "I STILL WANT TO KISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "I still got to..."

  "Let him know..."

  ...

  SLASH!

  …

  / What Once Was - Her’s

  I watched it in slow motion...

  My insides slowly being forcefully let out of me...

  My blood spraying all over... HER...

  My body instinctively dodged any further damage, with my heels catching sparks on the ground-

  We clashed... HARD...

  Sparks sent flying-

  I got on to the sides of the tunnel, just feeling it-

  The darkness all encroaching on us, the mist not helping at all-

  How do I stop her... when she knows every step I make, with this mist of hers...

  And from the bricks of the walls-

  Came dead soldiers from all differing eras-

  Their hands rising towards me-

  They were...

  All varying...

  From vikings to spartans to knights to WW1 and WW2 soldiers-

  I could only gasp at this slight revealing of her position-

  She just stood there-

  Her figure all obscured, her body mixed in with her own aura-

  And with just the raising of her hand-

  My body did somersaults, my vision blurring, my sensing on high alert-

  As I felt everything, heard and smelled everything-

  The mist was back and thicker than ever-

  But I could feel it all...

  From every bullet to every arrow and spear thrown at me-

  I just raised both hands, absorbing it all with my black holes-

  I bit my lip-

  Should I do this now...?

  What if she had something up her sleeve...?

  But if I just keep dodging and avoiding-

  I'm bound to lose to her superiority-

  No wonder we always used her as the 'soldier gathering asset'...

  She's... just too good at her job...

  And with the clicking of my tonguge-

  I nodded my head slightly-

  Ready for what comes next...

  Or was I?

  Eh! Fuck it!

  ...

  A buildup of the void within started to swell...

  I never used this technique... because I knew...

  It will always take me out of it...

  To remember everything...

  From all of the killing we've done... for the glory of the great empire!

  Yeah right...

  To the good times and bad times we've all had... as great friends...

  As... a family...

  But from the very day... both Suzushii and his bastard of a little brother...

  Betrayed us...

  It's... it's never been the same...

  From Aoki swearing unending vengeance to Yukki cursing their name to this grave...

  So many of us...

  Were lost... to the very void that we had to get over...

  For the glory of japan, for the betterment of the world...

  OR so they SAID...

  That bastard Prince Yoku...

  And his father of a...

  Heh...

  Look where that got us now?

  Look... where all our smiles had led us to...

  ...

  Death and loss incarnate...

  With no return to what once was...

  Such pangs hit my heart and... soul hard...

  But...

  I'm not like them... we're not like them!

  ...

  We'll both get out of this alive!

  Me and him!

  Him and me!

  ...

  "MIKOTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PROMISE ME YOU WON'T DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "THAT YOU'LL LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "CAUSE I KNOW I WILL GET OUT OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "AND WE'LL ESCAPE TOGETHER AND LIVE AS ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "I'LL NEVER DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  "Not until..."

  "I see you again..."

  "One final time..."

  ...

  And so did it burst...

  All of the blackness and white inside of her-

  All splattered and filling the entire tunnel, already filled with too much carnage-

  All of her very being and all of her very essence-

  Her will longed for it...

  And so...

  Did it come...

  ...

  To pass...

  …

  / Everlong - Foo Fighters

  What was this feeling?

  It tore me at the seams...

  I coughed desperately and loudly-

  My hands were filled...

  With my own blood...

  Where were we?

  Where was Kuroke?

  Last I remembered...

  I was able to avenge Aoki and Yukki...

  And especially... Akari...

  The dust was settling, I could barely keep my head together-

  The twilight hung over us, shards of glass and bits and pieces of the blast were still attached to my skin...

  He was lying there all unconscious, with his face all covered-

  I didn't know this little Rushiko kid had it in him to affect us THIS much...

  A sharp pain started to hit me...

  But it wasn't over... this...

  It...

  It was different...

  Why did it feel like something was missing...?

  Like something was echoing into the distance...

  It was familiar...

  This presence...

  The area started to have remnants of mist build up...

  Shion?

  But that must mean...

  "I'm still here... my love~"

  "Huh?"

  I rubbed my eyes, with the flashing lights of the distant buildings still overstimulating me-

  I didn't want to believe it...

  But... deep down... I knew it was true...

  This feeling was...

  ...

  Tei...

  ...

  I felt my entire body throbbed-

  Something was entering it, keeping my heartaches form hurting-

  Keeping this coldness from...

  Hurting...

  My lips...

  Had this strange sensation on them...

  It felt wet... all weird...

  Was this...

  Her...?

  And suddenly...

  It all came crashing down...

  All of our bad blood and distance was shortened and closed...

  Just by the slight kiss from... my one and only love...

  If only she knew how I felt about her...

  "But I do know how you feel... baby~"

  "Tei... are you-"

  "Shhhhhh"

  "It's all right now..."

  "I'm here with you... forever and ever..."

  "And soon... we'll be together... all right?"

  "Yeah..." I could only stop my pangs from hitting me further-

  My arms were all around me, my lips were still quivering-

  But she... she made it all feel better-

  But deep down...

  I knew this was her passing-

  Her...

  Spirit...

  Clinging onto me...

  ...

  And so did I crash that very moment-

  Sobbing and kneeling onto the cold and shard-filled asphalt-

  But I didn't care if my knees were bleeding...

  Compared to this...

  If only we'd confessed to each other sooner...

  Maybe we could've deserted and lived quietly...

  Together...

  Forever...

  But alas...

  Here I am hugging myself all over-

  With her lingering over me...

  "I love you Tei..."

  "I love you so much..." I let my feeble words escape my cold lingering lips-

  She could only smile further, with this bittersweet glance at me-

  Like she always had...

  Like she always gave me...

  "I know... Miko-chan..."

  "I love you too..."

  ...

  "My beloved Mikoto..."

  …

  / Helicopter - Bloc Party

  Both of them just sat there...

  Contemplating over their fates...

  Their heads backing up to see the blackness in the sky, all black and all nothing-

  It was... neverending...

  The air was heavy...

  The night seemed to stretch on for eternity...

  But it hit her...

  Himura suddenly rose from the ground, with Rushiko only looking up at her-

  Wondering what it was-

  "Hey? You alright?"

  "What's happened?"

  Judging from the look in her face, it...

  It...

  It felt like death was knocking on her door...

  But this time...

  It wasn't her death that was fast approaching-

  It was someone she knew well...

  Death had become her-

  And so was their duty to cleanse the world of her at hand-

  Cause this feeling of extreme bloodlust and complete debauchery, this aura...

  It was something else entirely-

  Why was this? All attached to someone she loved deeply?

  Rushiko stayed silent-

  He could feel it too, by the distance from the other side of the city-

  The fires raged on, orgies and naked bodies and moans filled the air-

  Dead corpses and roars among all ages were heard!

  Entire buildings fell from her presence alone...

  There was no mistaking it...!

  Rushiko stood up and held Himura close, her muffled voice and heat covered and smothered his chest, he could only bite his lip at this sudden turn of events...

  "It's her isn't it?!?"

  "Yeah it is..."

  "It's her... Himura..."

  "And to answer your question earlier..."

  "No..."

  "Both of us will have to kill her..."

  "This is the same aura signature when we both fought..."

  Himura could only raise her head to see his determined but deterred face full of fear, but also a sense of duty to be upheld...

  "This is the Kokko I met... that fateful day..."

  "And if it wasn't for... Suzu-san..."

  "I'd be dead for sure..."

  "All thanks to her..."

  …

  / Moon Undah Water - Puma Blue

  Silent footsteps started to encroach over to the sight-

  To the scene...

  Two hands wrapped together, with both wielding a gun and a blade...

  The atmosphere was both deafening and choking-

  It was hard to breathe nor even contemplate...

  What had to be done here...

  He knew it was here...

  The person who started all of this...

  The person who took his father from him...

  The one...

  That made him into a murderer...

  He clenched his pistol harder, almost causing to crack form the sheer force of his rage-

  She could only look at him from the side, her lips lulling him-

  Reminding him of what's transpired because of him giving in...

  To the loss...

  "It's what HE would've wanted..."

  "So please... Jisei..."

  "Don't give in..."

  "Don't lose your humanity over this..."

  "Keep your memory of your dad alive..."

  "By being a good person through and through..."

  "You got that?"

  They stopped at their tracks, staring at the backs of their superiors-

  They were here...

  And from the looks of the blast, something HUGE happened here...

  This must've been where THE fight happened-

  The one they felt and saw, its shockwaves... when they were stumbling all the way to round here...

  He could only nod, his face was still the gentle look that she fell in love with-

  And so when he was there at his lowest...

  She is here at his...

  "Manaka... thank you..."

  "Thank you..."

  She could only smile at this, nodding-

  ...

  This was it...

  ...

  THE END THEY HAD TO FACE... TOGETHER...

  AS ONE...

  ...

  -To Be Continued-

  ...

  Ending Song: / Buwan - Juan Karlos

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