The following days didn’t suddenly become better.

  They just stopped feeling unbearable.

  I woke up one morning and realized I wasn’t dreading the day ahead. The thought caught me off guard. It stayed with me quietly, like light entering a room without announcing itself.

  I got up early. Not because I had to—because I wanted to. The house was still calm. My mother was getting ready for work, moving with the same tired efficiency she had mastered over the years.

  I watched her for a moment.

  She never complained. She never slowed down. She just… carried on.

  That morning, I handed her the papers she always forgot near the cupboard. Another day, I reminded her about a form she needed to submit. Sometimes I walked her to the shop she used to work at.

  They were small things.

  But they mattered.

  In the evenings, I stayed present. Sat beside her while she talked about work. Fixed small things around the house that had been broken for weeks. Listened more than I spoke.

  I wasn’t trying to be someone new.

  I was just trying to be like a normal son.

  Somewhere along the way, I had stopped running from my life.

  At school, I started showing up properly—not physically, but mentally. I paid attention. I stopped pretending I understood things I didn’t. When I had doubts, I asked. When I didn’t do well, I didn’t spiral—I corrected.

  Anirudh noticed before anyone else ever could.

  “You look different,” he said one afternoon. “Less… gone.”

  I smiled faintly. “I feel more here.”

  He didn’t say anything after that. Just nodded, like he understood exactly what I meant.

  He started pulling me out of my head without making a big deal about it. After school, we’d sometimes go eat samosas or jalebis from the stall near the ground—nothing fancy, just enough to feel normal again. On some evenings, we played cricket until the sun dipped low and our arms ached.

  Anirudh always bowled with an unnecessarily long run-up and far too much pace, burning himself out in just a few overs. I kept telling him to slow down, that accuracy mattered more than speed—but he never listened. He’d just laugh, wave me off, and charge in again like he was bowling the final over of a World Cup.

  He never asked me to talk.

  He just made sure I wasn’t alone.

  It wasn’t confidence I was feeling.

  It was stability.

  I still thought about Disha sometimes. Not with anger. Not even with longing. Just with a quiet understanding that some things don’t stay—and that doesn’t mean they weren’t real.

  The pain was still there.

  But it wasn’t controlling me anymore.

  At night, when the house went silent, my thoughts often drifted to my brother.

  Not with fear.

  With clarity.

  His voice came back to me in fragments.

  “Don’t wait to feel motivated.”

  “Do the work first.”

  “Being consistent is more important than being talented.”

  At the time, I had thought he was being cold.

  Now, I realized he was being kind.

  I started following those rules without even noticing. Studying a little every day instead of cramming. Sleeping on time. Waking up when the alarm rang. Doing what needed to be done without making excuses.

  Nothing dramatic.

  Nothing heroic.

  Just steady.

  And steady felt powerful.

  Sometimes I imagined telling him about it—about how I was finally listening. About how I wasn’t wasting my days anymore.

  I could almost see the nod he would give. No smile. No praise.

  Just approval.

  One evening, walking back from school with Anirudh, my bag slung loosely over my shoulder, I felt something unfamiliar settle in my chest.

  Gratitude.

  For my mother.

  For Anirudh.

  For my brother.

  For the fact that despite everything, I was still standing.

  For the first time in a long while, the future didn’t feel like something waiting to punish me.

  It felt uncertain—but possible.

  I didn’t know where I was going.

  But I believed, quietly, carefully, that I would figure it out.

  I reached home later than usual.

  The day had been ordinary. Almost good.

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  I had walked back thinking about small things—an unfinished assignment, something my brother once said about discipline, my mother asking me to pick up thread for her tailoring work. For the first time in weeks, my mind wasn’t heavy. It felt steady. Anchored.

  That was why the street stopped me.

  Our lane was crowded.

  That was the first thing that felt wrong.

  It was never like this—never this loud, never this full of people standing in uneasy clusters. Neighbours I barely spoke to. Old men from nearby shops. Women whispering to each other, hands pressed to their mouths.

  Someone saw me and stopped talking.

  Another looked away.

  My stomach tightened.

  I walked faster.

  Inside the gate, shoes were scattered everywhere. Slippers. Sandals. People I didn’t recognize.

  The hope I had carried all day slipped somewhere behind my ribs.

  I stepped inside the house.

  The noise hit me all at once—murmurs, muffled crying, someone reciting prayers under their breath. The air felt heavy, thick, like it was pressing down on my chest.

  I searched for my mother.

  Then I saw her.

  She was sitting on the floor.

  Not standing. Not moving.

  Just sitting—her body folded in on itself, like it had finally given up holding things together.

  She was crying.

  Not quietly.

  Not with dignity.

  She was breaking.

  The sound didn’t feel human. It felt torn out of her.

  Something cold spread through me.

  I followed her gaze.

  And then I saw him.

  My brother.

  Arjun.

  He was lying in the centre of the room, wrapped in a white sheet that didn’t belong to him. His face was visible. Too still. Too calm.

  Like he was sleeping.

  Like he would open his eyes any second and scold me for being late.

  My legs stopped working.

  This didn’t make sense.

  He was supposed to come home next month.

  He was supposed to call tonight.

  He was supposed to tell me what to do next—like he always did.

  Just this morning, I had remembered his voice in my head. His advice. His faith in me.

  And now—

  Now he was here.

  Not breathing.

  Not speaking.

  Not anything.

  Someone said something to me. I didn’t hear it.

  Someone touched my shoulder. I didn’t react.

  I stood there, staring at his face, waiting for reality to correct itself.

  It didn’t.

  My mother cried harder when she saw me.

  She reached out, clutching my shirt like I was the only solid thing left in the world.

  “I already lost your father,” she sobbed. “How am I supposed to live without him too?”

  Her words cut deeper than anything else.

  This wasn’t just my pain.

  This was history repeating itself—for her.

  First her husband.

  Now her son.

  The one who carried the weight.

  The one who protected us.

  The one who made promises he never got to finish.

  Something inside me wanted to collapse.

  To scream.

  To cry.

  To fall apart like her.

  But nothing came.

  No tears.

  No sound.

  Just a hollow pressure in my chest.

  Because in that moment, I understood something I wasn’t ready to understand.

  I couldn’t cry.

  Not now.

  If I broke, she would have nothing left to hold on to.

  So I knelt beside her.

  I wrapped my arms around her shaking body and held her the way my brother used to hold both of us together.

  My hands didn’t tremble.

  My voice didn’t crack.

  I whispered things I didn’t believe yet.

  “I’m here.”

  “I won’t leave.”

  “We’ll manage.”

  She cried into my chest.

  And I stayed still.

  Because grief could wait.

  Because tears could wait.

  Because from that moment on—

  I wasn’t just a younger brother anymore.

  I was all that was left.

  That night, sleep didn’t come.

  The house had gone quiet in the way only grief can make it—not peaceful, just emptied of sound. Everyone had finally left. My mother lay in her room, exhausted into a fragile, uneven sleep.

  I found myself standing outside my brother’s room.

  The door was half open.

  I hadn’t gone in since I saw his body.

  Inside, everything was exactly where he had left it. His clothes neatly folded. His books stacked with discipline I never had, like proof that he had been real.

  I sat on the edge of his bed.

  That was when it hit me.

  The emptiness.

  Not loud. Not dramatic. Just vast.

  My chest tightened. My throat burned. I leaned forward, elbows on my knees, and finally—finally—I let myself feel it.

  I was about to cry.

  Then I heard footsteps.

  Slow. Familiar.

  I froze.

  Someone was behind me.

  I turned.

  He was standing there.

  Arjun.

  Alive. Whole. Wearing the same calm expression he always had when I panicked over small things.

  My heart slammed against my ribs.

  This wasn’t possible.

  I had seen him dead.

  Wrapped in white.

  I stood up so fast the chair scraped against the floor.

  “Bhaiya…?” My voice shook. “You’re— you’re—”

  He raised a hand gently, the way he used to when he wanted me to stop overthinking.

  “Relax,” he said. “Sit.”

  Fear crawled up my spine.

  “This isn’t real,” I whispered. “I’m not okay. I— I think I’m losing my mind.”

  He looked at me for a long moment.

  “Do you know how old I was when Papa died?” he asked.

  I shook my head.

  “The same age as you are now.”

  That stopped me.

  “I was scared too,” he continued. “Lost. Angry. Suddenly responsible for things I didn’t understand yet.”

  I swallowed. “Then how did you do it?”

  He smiled faintly.

  “Because Papa talked to me before he died.”

  My breath caught.

  “You never told me that.”

  “You were too young,” he said. “He told me something that day. Something I carried every single year after.”

  He stepped closer.

  “He said—” Arjun paused, his voice steady but distant.

  “No matter how heavy life gets, don’t let it crush who you are. Pressure will come—from people, from society, from responsibility—but don’t live just to satisfy it. Be the man you’re meant to be. Not the man I became. Not the man the world expects.

  Take care of your mother. Hold this family together when I’m gone. And when you feel lost, remember—strength isn’t in pretending you’re unafraid, it’s in standing up even when you are.”

  My head snapped up.

  No one else knew that.

  No one.

  “How do you know that?” I whispered. “I never heard this. You never told me.”

  He held my gaze.

  “That’s because you needed to hear it now.”

  My legs felt weak.

  “Bhaiya, I can’t do this,” I said, my voice breaking. “Everyone will expect things from me. Society. Relatives. I’m not strong like you. I’m not capable.”

  He shook his head.

  “That’s where you’re wrong.”

  He placed a hand on my shoulder. I could feel it. Warm. Solid.

  “I don’t want you to be like me,” he said softly. “Or like Papa. Or like anyone else.”

  “Be the man I never was.”

  The words settled into me slowly, painfully.

  “You’ve always been a good son,” he continued. “A good brother. Even when you didn’t believe it. I believe in you. I always have.”

  My eyes burned.

  “Promise me something,” he said.

  I nodded, unable to speak.

  “No matter what happens… no matter how hard it gets… promise me you’ll take care of Ma. For her whole life.”

  I didn’t hesitate.

  “I promise,” I said.

  The moment the word left my mouth, something shifted.

  The room felt heavier.

  Quieter.

  I blinked—

  And he was gone.

  Just like that.

  I stood there, alone, shaking.

  I didn’t know how long I stayed like that before I heard movement behind me.

  My mother.

  She stood at the doorway, her eyes tired, red, hollow.

  She looked at me—not like a child.

  Like support.

  Like something she could lean on.

  She walked toward me slowly and wrapped her arms around me.

  I held her.

  Tightly.

  She held me back, harder than I expected.

  In that embrace, I felt it.

  The shift.

  The weight.

  The responsibility I could never put down again.

  That night changed everything.

  Not loudly.

  Not heroically.

  Just permanently.

  And somewhere between that room, that promise, and her trembling breath against my chest—

  My childhood ended.