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For Everyone Except Me

  Three weeks was all it took for something imagined to begin behaving like it was real.

  Terrance woke before the sun had fully stretched across his curtains. The room rested in a soft gray hush, the kind that made everything feel suspended in place.

  For a moment he lay still, listening. The low murmur of his mother and stepfather drifting from the kitchen. Cabinet doors opening. The muted clink of ceramic meeting countertop.

  On the rug beside his bed, his dog shifted, nails grazing fabric as it curled tighter into sleep.

  Then he reached for his phone.

  The screen bloomed to life in his hand, washing his palm in cool blue light that felt brighter than the morning itself.

  Notifications waited.

  Sicily's page had begun to grow. Quietly. Incrementally. In numbers Terrance rarely saw attached to his own name.

  Friend requests stacked at the top of the screen. Messages blinking. Reactions multiplying beneath her photos. People he knew in real life.

  Classmates who once passed him in hallways without speaking. Coworkers who barely glanced at him across the restaurant. Even a few acquaintances from church.

  Now they wanted in.

  Each request tightened something in his chest. Pride rose first, warm and electric. Then guilt followed, softer but heavier, settling just beneath it.

  It felt like applause meant for someone standing just behind him, close enough to touch but never fully seen.

  His thumb hovered before tapping accept. One by one.

  Each name disappeared with a subtle shift of his finger. The numbers climbed. His pulse followed.

  With every notification, Sicily felt less like something he had assembled late at night and more like something that moved without him. A pulse beneath glass. A presence that waited, patient and alert, whenever he reached for it.

  Terrance switched back to his personal page and scrolled slowly. His face remained blank, though no one was there to read it. His own posts sat quiet. A handful of likes. Familiar names. Nothing urgent.

  He tapped on Sicily's profile.

  Seeing her through his own account sent a current through him. It felt private. Almost illicit. As if he had stepped into a room lit by soft lamps and closed the door behind him.

  He sent a friend request from himself.

  The notification appeared almost instantly. He stared at it longer than necessary, aware of how strange this looked. Aware that the line he had crossed existed only in his own mind.

  He switched accounts.

  Accept.

  The symmetry made him smile. Small. Contained.

  Back on his personal page, he scrolled until he reached one of her photos. Sunlight spilling across empty streets. Shadows stretching long against pavement.

  He remembered adjusting the warmth until it glowed just right. Softening the glare. Trimming the caption until it felt effortless.

  Now he studied it as if it belonged to someone he admired from a distance.

  A comment formed in his mind. Casual. Familiar. Intimate in a way that suggested understanding.

  He typed slowly.

  This is beautiful. You have a way of seeing the world that makes it stop for a second.

  His finger hovered over send.

  The house shifted around him. Water running in the sink. A door closing. Footsteps crossing tile. The world continuing without pause.

  He pressed it anyway.

  The notification appeared on Sicily's page.

  He switched back and watched it land. Watched the exchange take its place in public view. Terrance commenting. Sicily receiving. Two names existing side by side. One hand holding the phone.

  His breathing slowed, then deepened.

  He liked another photo. Then another. Responded to his own comment from her account.

  Thank you. That means a lot.

  He reread the exchange carefully. The tone felt balanced. Warm but not eager. Thoughtful but not heavy.

  Believable.

  For a moment he forgot which profile he was inside.

  The blue light reflected in his eyes as he moved between accounts, adjusting punctuation, spacing out responses so they felt natural, shaping conversation like a director arranging actors on a stage.

  His body remained still against the pillow, but inside something was shifting. Stretching. Rearranging itself to make room.

  From the kitchen his mother laughed at something his stepfather said. The sound drifted faintly down the hall, grounding and distant at the same time.

  Terrance stayed where he was, suspended between the weight of his own name and the pull of another.

  Somewhere in that quiet morning light, he understood something without saying it out loud.

  Sicily was not just becoming real to other people.

  She was beginning to feel real to him.

  By nine thirty, Terrance was dressed and halfway down the driveway, keys in hand, trying to decide where to begin the day.

  Maybe the bookstore downtown. He could sit in the back corner near the art section. Flip through something obscure. Let himself linger without performing.

  Or the small park by the river. He had passed it a hundred times and never once stopped.

  Today, he thought. I could just go somewhere that has nothing to do with anyone else.

  His phone rang.

  He already knew.

  "Hey," his sister's voice came through, rushed. "Are you busy?"

  He looked at the empty passenger seat.

  "No. What's up?"

  "My shift ended early. Can you come get me? And I need to stop at the pharmacy. And maybe the grocery store. It'll be quick."

  Quick.

  He glanced at the road ahead. The bookstore would still be there. The park would not disappear.

  "Yeah," he said easily. "I'm on my way."

  By the time he pulled up, she was already scrolling on her phone, not looking up until she opened the door.

  "Ugh, thank goodness you're a lifesaver," she said. "I really didn't wanna take an Uber home."

  He smiled. "No problem."

  "I cannot wait until I get a car."

  She had been saying that for two years now. Same promise. Same laugh after it.

  He adjusted the rearview mirror and pulled back into traffic.

  At the pharmacy she pressed her card into his hand.

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  "Can you run in? I'm so tired."

  He took it without looking at her. "Yeah."

  The automatic doors parted with a soft mechanical sigh. The air smelled faintly of antiseptic and something powdery and sweet.

  He stood in line behind a woman holding cough syrup and tissues. In front of her, a man placed a folded greeting card and a bouquet of yellow flowers on the counter. The petals were bright. Unapologetic.

  Terrance shifted his weight. The plastic card felt warm from her hand.

  He glanced at the window. The sky outside was clear. Early afternoon light spilling across the parking lot.

  The park would have been quiet right now.

  The thought rose and lingered.

  He slid it back down.

  When he returned to the car, she was mid-sentence.

  "...and then he just stopped texting. Like what was the point?"

  He pulled out of the parking lot.

  She talked the entire drive. Work drama. A coworker who mispronounced her name. Her children's father again. The way he had abandoned them.

  He timed his responses carefully. A small laugh when she laughed. A shake of his head when she needed agreement.

  "Men are weird," he said lightly.

  She sighed. "You always get it."

  He kept his eyes forward and smiled.

  After carrying the bags inside and setting them neatly on her kitchen counter, he walked back to the car alone.

  The door shut. Silence settled.

  His phone buzzed before he could start the engine.

  It was his friend Simone.

  Her name glowed across the screen, bright and insistent.

  He watched it ring once. Twice.

  Then he answered.

  "Please tell me you're free," she said immediately. Her voice was thick, swollen with tears she had not finished crying.

  He leaned back against the driver's seat. "What happened?"

  "It's Nigel again. I swear I cannot do this. I need you. Can you come over?"

  He closed his eyes briefly, thumb pressing against his forehead as if bracing for impact.

  "Yeah," he said quietly. "I'll head over."

  By the time he walked into Simone's apartment, the air felt charged. She was pacing barefoot across the living room, arms wrapped around herself, phone still clutched tight in her hand.

  "He said I'm ungrateful for what he does for me," she snapped, turning toward him. "Ungrateful. After everything I've sacrificed for him. I cook for him. I take care of his kids when they are not even mine."

  Terrance set his keys down and eased onto the couch.

  She dropped beside him a second later, her body collapsing into his space, shaking with frustration.

  "You are not ungrateful," he said gently. His voice stayed level, steady. "You want him to acknowledge what you do. You want him to show up more. You want to feel appreciated. That's not the same thing."

  She wiped at her face with the heel of her palm. "Exactly. He wants me to praise him all the time but forgets that I want to feel special too. Why is that so hard to understand?"

  Terrance studied the carpet for a moment before answering. "Sometimes people only see their side. They think what they are doing is enough. They forget that relationships require checking in. Asking how they can show up better."

  She let out a sharp breath that trembled on the way out. "I do not know why I keep going through this in relationships, friend."

  He did know.

  He knew they both wanted devotion without surrender. Attention without accountability. Power without vulnerability. But he swallowed that truth. It would not comfort her.

  "Because you keep choosing people who like being admired more than being accountable."

  He knew it would land. He chose his words carefully, the way he always did, arranging them so they felt like revelation instead of critique.

  She blinked, absorbing it. "You're right. I'm going to text him that."

  A quiet laugh slipped from him. "No. Do not text him that."

  She leaned her head against his shoulder. The weight of her settled there easily, familiar.

  "I do not know what I would do without you."

  His eyes drifted to the wall across from them, to a framed photo of Simone smiling wide at some party he barely remembered attending. In the picture, he stood just behind her, slightly out of focus.

  "I'm glad I can help," he said.

  And he meant it.

  He adjusted his posture, straightened his shoulders, and let the moment pass.

  Simone's breathing began to even out. The sharp edges in her voice softened. She wiped beneath her eyes and flipped her phone camera open, checking her reflection, smoothing her lashes back into place.

  "I swear," she said, exhaling slowly, "you always know what to say."

  He gave a small shrug. "I listen."

  She smiled at him then. Warm. Grateful. For a brief second it felt like something might shift. Like she might notice the quiet in him. The way he never spoke about himself.

  Instead she straightened abruptly.

  "Okay. I am not letting him ruin my whole day."

  He nodded.

  "You know what we should do?" she said, already reaching for her bag. "Let's go get food. I am starving. And I need to get out of here."

  He opened his mouth slightly, unsure what he had expected.

  "And maybe we can go to the mall. I need new jeans anyway. Retail therapy. Reset the energy."

  There it was.

  The turn.

  From tears to errands. From confession to distraction.

  Terrance felt something small press against his ribs. Not sharp enough to protest. Just enough to ache.

  His shoulders felt heavy in a way that had nothing to do with the bags he had carried earlier.

  Simone was already standing, smoothing her hair, stepping back into brightness as if the last hour had not existed.

  He let the irritation dissolve before it reached his face.

  "Sure," he said. "Food first. Then we'll fix your whole life."

  She laughed and grabbed his arm. "See? This is why you're my favorite."

  He let himself smile.

  And for a moment, he wondered who he was when no one needed him to be steady.

  Outside, the afternoon light had sharpened. The world felt louder now. Cars passing. Music leaking from open windows. Simone talked as they walked to his car, her voice shifting between anger at Nigel and excitement about a sale she had seen online.

  Terrance nodded in the right places. Added a joke when her voice wavered. Asked the kind of follow up questions that kept her talking.

  At the restaurant she ordered something rich and heavy. He chose something small. He realized halfway through that he was not sure he was hungry at all.

  While she scrolled between bites, laughing softly at something on her screen, he let his eyes drift.

  A couple sat near the window. The man reached across the table and squeezed the woman's hand without breaking conversation. It was small. Casual. Familiar.

  Something in Terrance shifted at the sight.

  He wondered how long it would last.

  People always reached for each other in the beginning.

  He lowered his gaze to his plate and swallowed it down.

  At the mall he carried her bags without being asked. Waited outside dressing rooms. Offered honest opinions when she stepped out.

  "This is beautiful on you," he said, studying the fit carefully. "The darker wash. It suits you more."

  She beamed at her reflection. "Thank you, bestie."

  He smiled back. Easy. Reliable.

  By the time he dropped her off, dusk had begun folding into the sky, blue deepening at the edges.

  She leaned across the center console and hugged him tightly. "I feel so much better. Thank you. Seriously. I do not know what I would do without you."

  He hugged her back, steady and warm.

  "Text me when you get inside," he said.

  As she walked toward her building, already typing on her phone, Terrance remained in the driver's seat.

  The car grew quiet.

  For the first time all day, no one needed anything.

  He exhaled slowly, letting the silence settle over him.

  For a brief, honest second, he wondered what it would feel like to say no.

  When he pulled into the driveway, he did not turn the car off right away. The engine idled softly. The radio hummed beneath the quiet. The house glowed ahead, warm and ordinary.

  He sat there with his hands resting on the steering wheel.

  Stillness.

  He reached for his phone.

  Facebook opened automatically.

  His personal page appeared. Familiar. Safe. Controlled. A place for birthdays and filtered humor. Nothing that required explanation.

  His thumb hovered over the status bar.

  What's on your mind?

  He began typing.

  Sometimes I wish someone would ask how I'm doing for once.

  The sentence sat there, heavier than it had felt inside him.

  He imagined Simone reading it. His sister. Someone responding with a laughing emoji. Or worse, a private message asking what was wrong.

  He imagined having to soften it. Clarify it. Shrink it.

  He deleted the words slowly. One letter at a time.

  The blank space returned.

  He locked the screen.

  His jaw tightened. He stared through the windshield as if something might answer him from the dark.

  Then he switched accounts.

  Sicily's page opened like light spilling into a room.

  He scrolled until he found the photo from last week. Sunset bleeding into orange and violet. Sicily standing near the water, turned slightly away.

  Dirty blonde hair lifting gently in the wind. Her face soft. Distant. Almost tender with ache.

  He studied her carefully.

  She looked like she was allowed to feel things.

  He uploaded the photo.

  The caption came easily.

  Dreaming of a place where I am free from everyone else's burdens.

  He read it once. No hesitation. Post.

  The likes appeared almost instantly. Small red circles blooming at the edge of the screen. Comments stacking beneath.

  He watched them accumulate without blinking.

  He had learned the rhythm by now.

  The pause before posting. The weight of the phrasing. The kind of sadness that invited comfort without demanding it.

  It worked.

  So relatable.

  You deserve peace.

  Stay strong, beautiful.

  People shared it.

  Terrance leaned back against the seat and felt something loosen in his chest.

  Not joy.

  Relief.

  As if he had exhaled through someone else's lungs.

  He did not have to brace himself as her.

  No one leaned on Sicily.

  They leaned toward her.

  The phone buzzed again.

  Friend request.

  He tapped it without thinking.

  Isaiah McGowan.

  The name felt solid. Grounded. Not abbreviated. Not hidden behind symbols.

  He opened the profile.

  The first photo stopped him.

  Isaiah leaning against a pearl white sports car, sunlight tracing the line of his jaw. Dark eyes steady beneath thick lashes. A smile that did not fully reveal itself, as if he chose carefully when to let it show.

  Terrance felt warmth rise along his neck.

  He scrolled.

  Another photo. Fitted shirt. Sleeves pushed just enough to reveal forearms. Casual but intentional. Effortless without trying to look effortless.

  There was something in Isaiah's gaze that held. A quiet confidence. A depth that did not beg to be understood.

  Terrance's heart began to thud, slow and heavy.

  This, he thought, is exactly my type.

  The style. Clean but relaxed. The mystery in his expression. The way his smile seemed reserved for moments that mattered.

  Dream boyfriend material.

  The kind of man Terrance would admire from across a room and never approach. Too confident. Too certain. Too aware of his own presence.

  Too real.

  He wondered what Isaiah would think of him.

  He almost laughed at himself.

  Of course someone like that would be drawn to Sicily.

  Sicily was softness and distance. Beauty without insecurity. Poetic without apology. She carried longing like something elegant.

  Of course Isaiah would see her.

  Terrance straightened slightly in his seat, grounding himself.

  He told himself not to read too much into a friend request. Not to build castles out of nothing. Men like that had options. Men like that did not linger on profiles without reason.

  He scrolled further.

  Anime posts. Thoughtful captions. A debate about a character arc that Terrance had argued about in his own head weeks ago. A photo of Isaiah sitting alone at night, city lights blurred behind him, captioned simply, Still figuring it out.

  Terrance smiled before he could stop himself.

  There it is.

  Depth.

  He felt the pull then. Not just attraction. Recognition.

  He imagined what it would feel like to sit across from him. To be chosen. To have that steady gaze land and stay.

  He forced himself to breathe evenly.

  Do not get ahead of yourself.

  It is just a request.

  His thumb hovered.

  Then he accepted.

  The screen dimmed slightly in his hand. His reflection hovered faintly in the glass, layered over Isaiah's photo.

  He studied the overlap.

  For the first time since Sicily began to grow, the distance between who he was and who he pretended to be did not feel controlled.

  It felt thin, and strangely, inviting.

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