I am looking down at my own corpse when I awaken. I do
not have arms or legs or a body in general. The world around me is
colored in photonegative, in contrasting black and white. No, that is
not all there is here. Surrounding me are so many tiny lights. Billions
of beating hearts linked by shimmering green strings, connecting
everything from the blades of grass to the bacteria nestled within my
carcass to the worms burying in the earth.
I
wonder what would happen if I reached out and grabbed those lights. If I
plucked the strings of consciousness, what kind of sound would it make?
Yet
I have no hands to hold nor ears to hear. Is this my fate? To wander
the world as a spirit without a vessel, capable of seeing all things but
incapable of changing anything?
Do you really think I brought you back just for you to be incapable of doing anything with your second chance?NO!!!
I
want to live. I want to feel the touch of another on my skin and to
hold blade and ploughshare in equal measure. I want someone to tell me
that I did good, that I mattered and should be proud. I want to love and
I… And I want… I want….
Oh please, we can do all that later. Just tell me what your heart's desire is. Tell me what you want currently and be truthful.
I look down on my desiccated corpse, taking in the sight of vines entering my caved in chest.
I… I WANT TO KILL THE BASTARDS WHO DID THIS TO ME!
A
deep chill sets in as crystals, utterly flawless and possessing
negative entropy, bloom over my corpse. I fashion this vessel of war
into a humanoid androgynous form possessing no characteristics other
than monomolecular claws on its hands and a cyclopean eye colored in
pulsating blues and purples encompassing its face.
I
hear a hissing noise nearby. A mindless Rakshasa dreg, eyeless face
twisted into a snarl and fanged mouth dripping with drool. Disgusting
wretch without identity, nameless among quadrillions like it. Driven to
battle in the vain hope that one day it will reach the Sky and mingle
among the gods themselves.
My
vision goes blurry. I desire to kill it and my desire shapes reality.
When my vision clears I am standing over its flayed corpse, flesh
separated from bone by monomolecular claws. H-How did I get her? I am
surrounded by its brethren, still unaware that I am here. How fast did I
kill it? I did not feel any movement, I desired to be there and so I
was.
The
dregs rush at me as a horde, starting in the dozens and becoming
hundreds. Their lives are worthless, a single dreg cannot hope to
accomplish anything but pester and annoy but their strength is as a
legion. Dust spirals around me as a fast tempo and loud clashing
harmonies ring within my mind, a song so beautiful and violent playing
within my head as the dust become undulating planes that take on sacred
shapes as the waves flow through them.
Cymatics. Stray particles conforming to the points of stillness between the areas of low vibrations, just as Mahmud told me.
I
raise my fist and gather dust around it in a swirling vortex while
ordering dust into wings like those of a butterfly arranged within a
colorful golden ratio. Mahmud was an angel of war so I must be one as
well. The world goes silent as the dregs come closer, snarls and howls
rendered mute as all sound is suppressed.
Then
I slam my fists into the ground and the world screams. A great screech
rends the world apart, dust coalescing into a pulsating three
dimensional fractal pattern as the dregs closest to me are rendered to
dust and echoes, the searing intensity rending molecule from molecule
and atom from atom. The lucky ones merely have limb separated from limb
and bones rendered to powder as they are launched into the sky.
I
summon a jagged spear of perfect crystals, a bitter chill running
through my hand as it coalesces into monomolecular sharpness and I flap
my wings, the waves emitted further juggling them in mid-air as I carve
through the dregs, flesh and bone sliced into tiny chunks as my blade
tears through them, blood falling on the wet sod as rain. The ground
grows sticky with green gore yet not a single drop lands on me, I do not
want anything to stain this form and so nothing does.
How
boring, this is a war of wheat against the scythe. I demand something
that actually fights back. I demand something to test this form.
The
world is stained green with Rakshasa blood by the time I drop to the
ground. Tiny chunks of viscera are still falling to the ground while I
twirl my spear. If I had a mouth then I am sure there would be a
satisfied grin on it.
In
the distance are bright clusters of shimmering red and purple streaks
staining the green spiders web of the world, the emotions of despair
and rage suffocating as souls rejoin the web of life, flickering lights
growing a luminous red before fading to nothingness.
That's where all the fighting. That's my destination.
My
butterfly wings flap and I cease being a material object. I am a
Soliton following the bursts of emotion, a self-propagating wave-form
navigating detonations of rage and sadness at the speed of thought,
amplified by the intensity of the heat of battle. I exit my pocket of
intangibility and strike as a wraith, casting a wide blast of minor
tonality, depressing and slowing the advance of every creature on this
battlefield, before letting my spear sing.
My
after-images strike with their own will, echoes of my being possessing a
vestige of my will, letting me be in a hundred places at once. They are
my shadows, echoes of my true being, yet they are also me. I—We—set our
eyes on our target, a pair of colossal Rakshasa Ogres, towering at 15
meters while hunched on all fours. Their flower heads unfold petal by
petal to unleash great beams of ethereal power, searing through
everything and rendering metal to slag and flesh to ash.
They will be our targets.
Two
of my echoes strike at the closer ones heels as I once again suppress
all sound into a vortex of swirling dust gathering around my fist. My
wings take me to further heights before I descend, slamming my fist into
its flower petal head in a burst of ear-rupturing intensity. It's
decapitated corpse slums over and I choose to switch tools on the second
one.
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I
understand what this power is. It is power over the battles and waves,
mastery of universal resonance that lets one master the universal choir.
This other power, the power of stillness and solidity, however…. It's
power over perfect crystals, flawless nuggets of negative entropy free
of defect or imperfection, just like Mahmud talked about.
(My
mind flickers to him and the tempo of the song slows down while the
tonality becomes Minor. I promise that I will remember you and carry on
your will, Mahmud Ufair Ghazani, you who died a hero's death.)
I
banish the sensation from my mind, the song resuming its fast tempo and
Major tonality as I manifest a barrage of crystalline shards and launch
them with a flicker of intent. The shards flense flesh from bone and
turn bone to dust, forcing the Ogre to its knees before I grab it with
my will and squeeze. All heat exits as entropy is sloughed off,
thermal mass removed as entropy is irreversibly lost. The Ogre becomes a
crystal statue in a matter of seconds and part of me wants to preserve
it as a trophy, an emblem of my might.
Then
the crystal statue shatters as I emanate a hum of infrasonic intensity
through it, rendering it to dust. I look around and gaze upon my
handiwork. This battlefield has become a graveyard of friend and foe
alike, rivers of blood stain the once fertile soil and the smell of
burnt flesh and iron is fecund.
Yet
even here there is life. Something grows from the graveyard, not the
flora of the Light but a dark purple fungus growing upon the dead and
burying roots deep within the earth. I wince slightly as a flurry of
noises enter my ears, a cacophony of indistinct voices without identity.
MOMMYMOMMYMOMMYMOMMYMOMMYIDONTWANTTODIEIDONTWANTTODIEIDONTWANTTODIEGLORYTOCLANANDKINGLORYTOCLANANDKINGLORYTOCLANANDKINSOHOTSOHOTSOHOTSOHOTSOHOTSOHOT
UGH!
SHUT UP! I banish the voices, silencing them with my will, and turn to
look at the distance. There's a powerful presence in the distance,
hideous with Vanilla and drunk on hope. It dances in battle against a
second presence, a brave and kind presence yet one brimming with fear,
one I know.
ARGETLAM.
My
vision goes blank and I feel the press of dirt under my feet. I am
standing in the barren area of a forest and in front of me is HIMHIMHIMHIMHIM. The
golden spider looks at me apprehensively for a second while a second
one, a towering knight clad in chitinous armor with a blade wreathed in
the poison of the enemy, charges at me. I know both of these Rakshasa.
(I vowed to carry on your will, Mahmud. Let this be your Requiem with me as your instrument. Let justice be done.)
And at last a voice is given to our choir. Eight speak with the will of one and the song signals our vengeance.
Hear
us, sky-bound dead things. We carry the will of Mahmud Ufair Ghazani. H
I S W I L L L I V E S T H R O U G H U S. HOW MANY LIVES DO YOU HAVE IN
STOCK, SCION OF THE SKY-KING? no matter how many you have. I t w o n t c
h a n g e a n y t h i n g.
Our
declaration is issued with unfathomable authority and cold rage. It
tears molecule from molecule and atom from atom. Reality screams at this
expression of our emotions, of our will, of our strength.
We
move like a puppet on strings, every movement effortless as we slap
aside Kor Halaks blade and forge a sword of perfect crystals, blade
fractal at the edges, before amputating the Lightblades legs with a pair
of elegant slashes and decapitating him with such ease that we do not
feel anything. I turn to the other, despicable wretch of many limbs and
imbecile wit and slam my fist into his chest with such strength that we
puncture metal, burying our fist into his inside before unleashing a
burst of ear-rupturing noise, melting his insides and staining my fists
with viscera.
There
is a third noble here, a slender figure made of bone-white wood with a
skirt of roses and a vermilion flower petal face, and the song gains a
screeching intensity as my ears roar with a terrible thunder. A name
flickers through my mind as I charge with fury and with fervor. Anu El, daughter of the intricate brood. That is my enemy. That is who I must kill.
The
Lifesinger enunciates a low note belonging to a song descendent from
mine, in the way a wheel is descended from the essence of 'round'. This
song is MINE. THIS SONG IS PROPERTY OF THE MOST HOLY ARCHITECT. My
vision blackens for a moment and an atom-rending intensity emanates.
What if I am hurting Argetlam? No I mustn't doubt. This power is fueled
by my emotions but I must exhibit mastery of myself.
My
thoughts are broken as Kor Halak, body still piercing itself back
together, thunders and smashes his sword into my side hard enough for
the crystals to crack slightly. I desperately charge back, swords
clashing as I dance around him with my smaller figure and greater
mobility, ordering dust into sharp cymatic shapes to pierce through him.
His
immortality is bolstered by the lifesong, chitins becoming diamond hard
under the songs ministrations. I can suppress the sound and unleash it
as a burst but that's a limited measure.
My
power is mastery over the battles and the waves. Waveforms can either
be in phase or out of phase; it is a relative measure, the degree of
offset from a given point. So, when two waves interact, their troughs
and crests can align, thereby increasing their shared amplitude,
constructive interference, or directly contrast and cancel each other
out, destructive interference. I wonder what would happen if I….
I
become out of phase with reality, my frequency becoming disconnected
from the world as I become a phantom. I maneuver as a wave behind Kor
Halak and phase back with my fist in his chest. Now let's see what
happens when the waves cancel each other out. Atomic bonds are weakened
and organs crumble to dust under the destructive interference. Kor Halak
falls to the ground and I resonate with the Lifesongs frequency, waves
crashing against each other and negating each other.
Good thing I have other tools for my work.
Anu
El blazes with plasmic light, shaping plasma into a sword glimmering
with light and charging in a reckless thrust. If I had a mouth then it
would be twisted into a grin. My exterior provides perfect insulation
from the blistering heat coming off of her, air precipitating as my cold
and her heat clash.
And my coldness emerges victorious.
The
crystal marks on her skin, areas where atoms are frozen perfectly in
place without entropy or imperfection, expand as we clash. Her movements
grow sluggish and sloppy as we dance, her body crystalizing further and
further, until I lay a flat palm on her chest and squeeze.
All
noise is silenced, the only sound coming through is the creaking of
growing crystals, the sickening crunch as her bones shatter under the
intense cold. I pull back my fist and infuse all the suppressed sound
into it when she is fully a frozen sculpture.
Then I slam it into her in a colossal roar.
All that is left of her is powdered crystals. She won't return from this.
I
forge the dust in the air into a cymatic sword of vibrating dust
burning amber red before turning back to look at the two remaining
Rakshasa. They exchange glances before the spider charges at me, blades
blazing with electricity as his eight legs stampede forward.
I
want to make this one's death special. He was the one who killed
Mahmud. He was the one who terrorized me and tried to turn me into one
of those amnesiac dead things, he deserves this. The trick I pulled on
Anu El has lost its novelty.
I
wonder how deep my powers reach. Where do I go when I shift out of
phase? What's the deepest I can set my resonance to? Sage Schrodinger
believes that matter exhibits a duality as both wave and particles,
furthermore there exists mathematical abstractions, wave functions, that
describe the possible states and position of a particle. Do those
qualify?
Well, there's only one way to find out.
I
shape my curiosity into a drill and resonate with the lowest frequency I
can think of. I hum lowly to the wave functions, commanding them to
collapse into a new shape, and they give way to my will. The spider
starts screaming desperately as its very existential foundation is
attacked, the metaphysical description that makes it who it is scrambled
under a low infrasonic hum. Its body pixelates and its screams become
white noise as its flesh takes on cymatic abstract shapes.
I
once again suppress all the noise in the room and channel it into my
fist, approaching slowly and resonating with the wave functions.
Then I slam my fist into its chest and the world screams.
I
feel nothing as I watch it fade to dust. I feel parched, my mind
drained and worned out from the intense emotions I have experienced. Kor
Halak is nowhere to be found. Coward ran. The emotional crescendo of
the song gives way to a smooth consistent rhythm and slow tempo as I
struggle to even keep myself standing.
I
look around and see four figures on the ground, all at death's door.
One is albino and wearing a priests cassock, one is in ornate jade green
armor and wielding a power I can't help but recognize, something I can
tell is drawn from the same source as my own. Hidden behind a rock is a
cybernetic gunmetal grey figure missing an arm and finally there is an
astral knight clad in white armor and with a large hole in his chest.
Friends. They are friends. And I can't help but feel pulled towards the one in white armor, he reminds me of someone.
I
shift towards the astral knight and reach out a clawed hand to take
off his helmet. Smooth brown skin, hair arranged in a mullet and
dashing face with brilliant green eyes greet me. I pull back suddenly,
movements jerky as I feel the sudden rush of happiness fill me. Ah! Lord
Argetlam! He looks so serene like this, eyes closed and mouth in a
slight smirk. I can hear the rhythm of his heart beating slowly.
The
song shifts into a major tonality and excited tempo that manifests as a
healing blue light. Muscles knit themselves back together, bones
piecing themselves in place and organs regrowing as he coughs
desperately, eyes straining awake. I do not wish for him to see such a…
frightening visage in me. I let go of all control, my vision turning
back to normal as crystals retreats to reveal pale flesh and bone, my
blue eyes hazy as I strain to keep awake.
I
collapse onto his chest, taking in the strong muscles of his chest
under his bodysuit, his warmth, a flush enters my cheeks as I relax.
My
hearing is hazy as my vision turns black, the noise of hacking coughs
and distant voices blurry in my mind. Then one clear voice echoes in my
mind, an eloquent one brimming with admiration.
Majestic.
Simply majestic. You have proven yourself more worthy of existence than
so many others on this battlefield. Relax, shrug your weary shoulders
and be at peace. The battle is over after all.The
time of action is over after all, now you can ask me all that you want
and I will explain myself in the best terms available.So what do you want to know.Wh-Who am I? What am I? And who are you? What are you? That is all I wish to know.
Very well then, ask and you shall receive.Allow
me to show you the great answer to existence, the reason why anything
exists at all. The truth that lies before the first point of space and
first tick of time. Follow closely and hang on every word.Let me tell you of a Garden and two friends playing a game of possibility.

