Day 10 of using the team matching app. As a lone wolf, I was starting to lose faith in humanity. Sure, I'd met some decent teammates, but the bad ones far outnumbered them.

  "Right, time to call it a day."

  Yesterday's team had this persistent guy who made things difficult. The moment we met, he called me pretty and tried to hit on me.

  Between tasks he kept asking if I wanted to hang out after, saying he'd show me a good time, then he started getting handsy. At first I politely declined, but he kept pushing. When I finally put my foot down, he had the nerve to claim I'd been leading him on.

  The other teammates had to step in before he backed off. He pretended to comply but I could hear him muttering insults under his breath. The guy had no sense of boundaries or basic manners, and to make things worse he was skilled, leaving the whole team uncomfortable.

  The accumulated stress from teaming up gave me erotic dreams that night.

  The result was this relentless lust that had been building since morning. What troubled me more was that Si-hyun appeared in my dream.

  The dream was so vivid it was driving me insane.

  Was I that desperate? Why did it have to be Si-hyun? Just because he's the only guy I know? Shouldn't normal people fantasize about celebrities or something?

  Oh right, I don't really watch TV.

  The hyper-realistic dream only fueled my lust further.

  Dreaming of Si-hyun playing with my body... At least we didn't go all the way in the dream, but still! I dreamed of Si-hyun caressing my body!

  "I've lost my mind. Completely lost it!"

  Was this really an appropriate dream for someone who was male just months ago?

  Dreaming of being teased by my best friend! Why was I making those pleasure-filled moans in the dream?

  The more I hated myself, the more stressed I became, and the stronger my lust grew.

  So I made a decision: I'd just masturbate and get it over with! One good release like a man would and done.

  Remembering my last lesson, I first checked that no one was home.

  Fortunately, the house was empty. This wasn't my fault, just stress talking.

  Having justified myself, I locked the door and began.

  The slow start soon made me lose track of time.

  "Mmm..."

  I rubbed my slickening clit and folds, chasing the pleasure.

  "Si... Si-hyun. Ahh, ah... no."

  I never inserted my fingers inside during masturbation—that was one mental barrier I couldn't cross.

  "Hmm, haah..."

  My parted lips left my throat dry.

  "Haah...?"

  Even after one climax, my hands kept moving, my sensitive heated body craving more pleasure.

  "Haah... ah, ahh"

  My post-orgasm sensitive body reacted intensely to the slightest stimulation.

  I wanted more pleasure, more stimulation, more ecstasy.

  "Heeh, Si-, Si-hyun...?"

  Nearing climax, I roughly twisted my nipples and clit, demanding intense pleasure.

  "Ah, ahh..."

  Pain mixed with overwhelming ecstasy, and at the peak moment-

  I felt the urge to pee.

  "Heeh..."

  Lost in the intense pleasure of back-to-back climaxes, I didn't notice anything wrong at first.

  In that refreshed, lazy state, exhausted and ready to sleep, a strange smell snapped me awake.

  The sheets were soaked with the fluid I'd released.

  The problem was, it wasn't my usual arousal fluids.

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  "Ah, damn it."

  I actually wet myself. I’d seen scenes in comics where female characters lose control during climax, but I never imagined it would happen to me.

  Self-disgust washed over me.

  Eventually, I dragged my exhausted body to clean up the mess.

  While handling it, I couldn’t stop feeling ashamed of what I’d done.

  "I’ve lost my mind. Completely lost it."

  I stuffed the soaked panties, urine-drenched sleep pants and bedsheet into the washing machine. Seizing the moment, I decided to take a shower too, stripping off all my clothes and tossing them into the machine before starting it haphazardly.

  As I was about to shower, my body still overly sensitive, the spray of water made me shudder.

  "Ah, tch..."

  Considering my condition, I switched to a gentler stream and washed slowly, finally feeling somewhat relieved afterward.

  After the shower, the lust that had plagued me all morning finally subsided.

  Coming to my senses, I regretted my actions.

  Masturbation itself wasn’t the issue, it’s normal for someone in their twenties to have sexual urges.

  But why did I have to call out Si-hyun’s name while doing it?

  I get being frustrated! But why him?!

  I decided to look on the bright side:

  It’s only because Si-hyun is the only guy I know. I definitely wasn’t using him as a sexual fantasy.

  After setting the washing machine, I went straight back to bed and fell asleep.

  Woken by the alarm, I tossed the delayed laundry into the dryer.

  Dryers are such Artifacts!

  With this, I could hide the evidence of my disgraceful act!

  Feeling hungry, I went to the kitchen but found nothing edible.

  I tried frying a simple sunny-side-up egg, but ended up burning one and breaking the other, a total failure.

  I still ate the ruined eggs, but they tasted like nothing.

  "Should I learn how to cook?"

  I usually either ate Mom’s cooking or ordered takeout. After starting to earn my own money, I realized takeout was too expensive, and the portions were always too small, feeling like a waste.

  Times like this made me especially regret how my appetite shrank after becoming a girl.

  While wandering around bored, Si-hyun sent a message.

  -What are you up to?

  = Just hanging out.

  Seeing Si-hyun’s message brought back everything, last night’s dream and calling his name during masturbation.

  -Wanna meet today?

  Ha, of all days?

  What expression am I supposed to wear around Si-hyun?

  = No.

  Drowning in shame, I rejected his offer.

  -Sorry.

  Huh? Si-hyun’s reaction felt a bit off.

  = What are you apologizing for?

  -Are you still upset about me turning you down last time?

  = Not at all.

  -Really?

  = I just don’t want to see you.

  Si-hyun took a while to reply.

  Damn, talking to Si-hyun kept bringing up things I wanted to forget.

  -Are you mad?

  = No.

  -I’m sorry.

  = Stop. Enough.

  Did I overreact?

  Sorry, Si-hyun! Meeting right now would just be awkward.

  My friend pushed me away, saying she wanted to act alone. She mentioned something about my girlfriend misunderstanding, but I’m clearly single.

  Should I watch from afar or follow her secretly? While debating, I decided trailing her was too much.

  A few days passed since my friend started living alone.

  I was worried. She's always been a bit clueless, and now she’s a girl too.

  My biggest fear was her becoming a target for Criminals like before.

  To clear my head and release some stress, I went Gate Hunting.

  Pounding Monsters felt cathartic. While handling the Magic Stones, I noticed my friend had deposited money into our joint account.

  It wasn’t much. Did she earn this on her own?

  Seems she was serious about being independent.

  I felt relieved she could make her own money, but also a little sad.

  She was truly starting to move forward without me, and the feeling was both real and regrettable.

  Suddenly I remembered Yoo Mi-ro saying i would take responsibility for her entire life...

  Drinking alone and lost in thought, I suddenly wanted to see her. Fueled by alcohol, I made a video call.

  After a long ringing tone, my friend wouldn't answer me?

  Just as I was stubbornly thinking of opening another bottle, the screen suddenly changed.

  The moment I saw the screen clearly, I doubted my eyes.

  My naked friend in a bathtub.

  -Ah!

  Amidst my scream, the screen flipped, and in that instant her private parts flashed into view.

  The screen disappeared one second later, and the call ended.

  I sat stunned, replaying what I had just seen.

  Had I drunk too much and seen wrong?

  After a long internal struggle, my phone rang again.

  A message from hyung:

  -This is Si-yeon. My phone fell in water. I'll contact you when it's fixed

  Seeing this confirmed what I saw was real.

  It seemed I wouldn't be sleeping peacefully tonight.

  That night I lost sleep in multiple ways, but in the morning I received a call from my friend.

  -Si...Si-hyun?

  "Ah, it's Si-yeon"

  Hearing her voice, last night's events surged back to disturb my mind.

  -Wh...why did you call yesterday?

  "I wanted to know if you were doing well."

  -Of...of course I'm fine.

  "Should we team up again?"

  I meant it. After last night, I even thought about taking care of him forever.

  -No.

  "Isn't it hard?"

  -It's fine. I can handle it.

  Her firm tone made me understand she was serious.

  Then what I should do is respect her decision.

  What should I say? Good luck? I'll wait for you?

  -Are we meeting today?

  These words immediately brought back last night's image.

  My naked friend.

  No. If we meet today, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop myself from pouncing on him.

  I used to see her only as a friend, but Yoo Mi-ro's words made me start seeing her through female eyes.

  Plus seeing her naked made my desires harder to suppress. This base thought of wanting to possess her emerged. Meeting now would be no different from taking poison.

  "No need... do your best."

  This was the best response I could manage while suppressing my desires.

  -Yeah, you too.

  After hanging up, I realized: I had already started seeing my friend as a woman.

  No amount of denial would change that.

  Only then did I understand I was actually scheming to possess her.

  "Ah... what should I do?"

  I understood that if this continues, I won't be able to see my friend as just a friend anymore.

  When I became aware of my feelings, memories from the past and recent happy times we spent together came flooding back.

  The way my friend had unknowingly started dressing like a girl.

  The way she smiled happily, the times we playfully pushed each other, how happy he looked during our first hunt, the way she ate delicious food, how she offered food to me, how she looked in a swimsuit.

  Even though my friend had only become a girl recently, we had truly accumulated various memories and I had seen so many different sides of her. Happy memories kept surfacing. And whenever these images came to mind, I found the person appearing in my thoughts was no longer just a friend, but a girl.

  I must be crazy. Not long ago, I thought I could never like her as a girl.

  Now I had started recognizing my friend as a girl.