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Book 1, Chapter 29: Mortal Hands

  No one spoke. No one moved.

  Darius sat with his hands folded over the pommel of Devotion. Saint Eryndor watched Selene with something like grief and something like awe folded into the same expression.

  Selene, hands loose on her knees, sat in the fire’s halo and looked tired enough to sleep where she perched. From the shadow just beyond the circle, a voice said hoarsely, “We’re meant to accept this? That’s your tale, and we just… believe it?”

  Darius didn’t look to see who had spoken. He kept his eyes on Selene.

  Another voice, sharper, followed. “You expect us to swallow that you knew Saint Lucen the Wrathful as a friend, and that Saint Augustine himself guided you?” The speaker laughed once—short, brittle. “If you’re going to invent a pedigree, witch, at least try for subtlety.”

  The murmurs crept in like cold through seams. A few made the sign of thorns—not against her, precisely, but as if to brace their own hearts against the shape of the tale. Aelun’s eyes flicked toward the doubters; Calder lifted her chin, watching Selene instead.

  Selene’s mouth twitched as if there were a dozen answers, but none worth the effort of choosing.

  Before the next insult could find its feet, Isolde moved.

  She stood, crossed the space between fires in three strides, and wrapped her arms around Selene’s neck with an urgency that made every hand near a hilt forget what it had been reaching for. Her forehead pressed to Selene’s temple.

  “Meme,” Isolde breathed. “I thought I’d never see you again.”

  The name lit the clearing like another flame. Myrren’s quill clattered; Jareth’s tapping hand froze.

  Selene’s smile came thin and crooked. “So you finally recognize me, Soso?” she said, dryly.

  Isolde pulled back enough to swat Selene’s shoulder once, a gentle, admonishing strike. “You always were a show-off,” she whispered, and only then did her mouth tighten. “And you’re still pretending to be smaller than you are,” Selene responded.

  Gasps—brief, involuntary—broke around the ring. The accusation that had been building in the dark thinned and fell away with the ash. Belief, or the grudging beginning of it—settled in its place. Tomas swallowed, eyes suddenly unsure. Kaelen actually flinched as if struck, then stared at Selene.

  Tomas lifted his hand and traced the thorns over his chest. His voice had the careful cadence of a catechism learned before dawn. “What happened is lamentable,” he said, looking to the fire, then up. “There are men like that bishop in our house. I won’t pretend there aren’t. But many aren’t. More, I’d wager. The Sanctum is not a single man’s purse.”

  Selene nodded once, not unkindly. “True.”

  A ripple of relief ran through the Inquisitors who needed it to be true.

  She let them take that breath before she took it away. “But men like that are the ones whose hands move things,” she added. “And piety without power is just… wishing.”

  Calder’s scar pulled into something nearer to a grimace than a smile. “Even if that’s so,” she said, “most people do what they can with what they have. Some of the dead you unmade that day may have shared your opinions. You burned them anyway.”

  Eryndor added, building his courage. “And we, most of us here—we’d agree with much of what you said. But you act too hastily, you lay judgment too swiftly.”

  The breeze found the needles again, set them whispering.

  Darius finally leaned forward. When he spoke, his voice kept the low steadiness of a man who has buried friends by hand. “Garran and his men were much the same,” he said. “We saw the rot and hated it. Garran spoke as far as his voice could carry him. Yet, you killed him.” He let that name be a coin dropped into the hush. “A potential ally, if you’d given him time.”

  Selene’s answer came as fast as a knife flips in a palm. “Yes. But I grew tired of waiting.”

  No hesitation. No apology.

  Jareth’s mouth opened and then shut. Kaelen stared at her as if the speed of the word had done something physical to the air.

  Selene let her words sit there. Then she went on. “You see the rot and hate it. If you don't move to stop it, you become part of it. Good intentions mean nothing. And when you do move—if you ever do—you move within the lines you’re given. You won’t step outside the circle. You won’t even think to redraw it.”

  Tomas bristled. “Not all of us are—”

  “Are what?” Selene tilted her head. “Me?”

  Isolde’s voice came small and sharp at once. “She doesn’t understand,” she said, eyes on the fire. “She never has. Not everyone can be like you.”

  Selene’s brow lifted. “What do you mean?”

  For a breath, no one wanted to be the one to say it. Then the words came in pieces, jagged and reluctant, as if they had been waiting in the camp all night for a mouth brave enough to carry them.

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  “Granddaughter of the first witch,” Eryndor said quietly.

  “Daughter of the most powerful warlock,” Kaelen muttered.

  “Granddaughter to the second,” came Jareth’s addition, voice dry.

  “Myrren,” Calder said, not looking away from Selene, “your ledger has a rumor about one of the greatest magicrafters—”

  Myrren’s lips thinned. She nodded once. “Her mother,” she said softly. “The work still outpaces anything currently in development.” She said, looking at Devotion.

  “And heir,” Tomas finished helplessly, “to a throne. Princess to an empire.” He spread his hands. “You were born with everything. We weren’t.”

  Darius’ eyes held hers. “You can’t understand what it is to have nothing,” he said, not accusing, just stating the fact.

  Selene’s answer cut across, sharp as a blade. “And?” she said.

  Darius blinked. “What?”

  “I was born with everything.” She shrugged. “And? So what?”

  She stood. The movement wasn’t dramatic. It didn’t need to be. She took one step forward and pressed her palm against Darius’ breastplate, over the heart. The Inquisitors near him tensed. Her hand rested there.

  “Cry about it,” she said. “Then, when you’ve wrung yourself dry, cry some more. When the tears are gone, get up and do something. Or don’t. Wallow until you’re another ghost with good intentions. Fade into obscurity. The world won’t miss you; it never does.” Her gaze lifted from Darius to take in the whole ring. “But if you’re going to call yourselves soldiers of god, be that.”

  Aelun’s eyes narrowed, approving despite himself. Calder’s scar twitched toward a smile, then away from it like a bird changing its mind mid-flight. Tomas flushed, anger and shame mixed until they were indistinguishable. Kaelen’s mouth worked around a retort that never arrived.

  Selene let the silence have them for a long breath. Then her voice softened—not kinder, but quieter, as if she were speaking to a roomful of patients and didn’t want to startle a wound awake.

  “I learned two things,” she said. “Not in a tower. Not from a book. But in a room with bad lighting and worse hearts.

  “First: the only authority that matters is the kind backed by power.” She lifted her hand from Darius’ chest. “ No edict matters if the man hearing it knows you can’t make it true. I watched bishops preach restraint because they had never been struck. I watched nobles invent laws to keep them from being struck. And I watched them all kneel to a little girl when the light proved it could strike where it pleased.”

  She turned her palm over, brushing the snow from it.

  “Second: you say demon blood corrupts.” The tiniest smile. “You’re not wrong. But it isn’t the fiercest rot I’ve met. Nothing ruins like mortal hands. Greed. Fear. The sweet belief that a man is good because he said he was and no one made him prove it.” She glanced toward the dark where the night watched them all. “The Church is a house built by such hands. That doesn’t make it evil. It makes its corruption… inevitable.”

  Eryndor’s mouth opened trying to find a counter point that never came. He looked down at his hands, then up again.

  Darius spoke. “If that’s the case,” he said, “what do you plan to do with the inevitable? Burn houses until there are none?”

  Selene shook her head. “I’m already doing it.”

  A few of the Inquisitors actually flinched, as if she’d thrown something at them they couldn’t see.

  She didn’t make them wait. “Everything I wanted for the Sanctum’s saints, I’m building for the Hallow’s witches. Not the cruelty. Not the games. Discipline, power, protection that doesn’t come with a leash disguised as a garland. I will live as many lifetimes as it takes to find someone with the will to carry that further than I can. And when I find the one who won’t bend, I’ll put it all in their hands. They will then do the same.”

  Tomas set his jaw. “And when your student's student's student becomes the thing you built them to fight?” he asked, almost gently. “When your own doctrine rots from the inside? ”

  Darius nodded. “You may live longer than most,” he said, “but you’re still mortal. By your own words, your vision will be corrupted.”

  Selene didn’t flinch from the blow. “Correct.”

  They stared at her, startled by the ease of the answer.

  “I’m not building perfection,” she said. “I’m building pressure.” She gestured vaguely toward the trees. “If the rot is inevitable, then so is the cure. You keep it from collapsing all at once. You slow it. You buy time. You build walls that creak instead of shatter. You leave notes in the mortar for the next hands to read. That’s the work. Not perfection. I have no interest in being perfect.”

  She let the last word sit there, honest and heavy.

  The fire shifted; smoke drew a line between two stars and erased it again. Around the ring, the Inquisitors wore a hundred versions of the same face: men and women who had believed their work had one set of edges and were now holding it up to the light to find it had more.

  Jareth cleared his throat, his voice low. “What of us?” he asked. “If we’re not powerful enough to matter and not vicious enough to move—what do we do?”

  Selene’s mouth flicked. “Your jobs,” she said. “Kill the things that need killing. Carry the people who can’t walk. If your Pontifex is the sort of man who can hear a complaint, make it. If he’s not, give it to someone who will break his table. But stop pretending a prayer will do anything.”

  Tomas’ eyes shuttered; a small, hurt sound escaped his lips.

  Calder exhaled through her nose, that bent half-smile reasserting itself like a habit. “Warriors for God,” she repeated, tasting the words. “Too afraid to do what’s needed.” She ran her thumb along the notch of her scar, then let her hand fall. “You’re not wrong. I hate that you’re not wrong.”

  “You could have tried to use us after becoming a saint,” Kaelen said suddenly, raw. “You could have tried before you turned your back.”

  Selene’s gaze met his. “You lot wouldn’t have helped me. You would have tried saving me from myself,” she said. “I didn’t need saving.”

  The words hung in the smoke, final as a door closing.

  Selene turned her back on the circle and walked into the dark. She didn’t look back. She didn’t say anything more.

  “Meme!” Isolde shot to her feet, nearly tripping over the log at her feet, and sprinted after her into the forest. Her voice broke the night again, desperate and familiar. “Meme!”

  The camp remained frozen, every Inquisitor fixed on the gap she had left.

  Darius exhaled, the sound ragged in his throat, and pushed himself upright. “We leave at first light,” he said. His voice was flat, but the words carried.

  From the shadowed trees, Selene’s voice drifted back, “I’ll be there.”

  Then the forest claimed even that.

  Around the fire, the Inquisitors sat in silence. Some faces still burned with disbelief; others were pale with the beginnings of something heavier—reevaluation, reckoning. A few clenched their hands tighter on blades and quills. Others only stared into the flames.

  The camp was no longer the same.

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