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Chapter 43: What We Dont Say

  Guild of Lithrium – Lyra's Private Room

  Evening, after her unexpected day with Iver.

  The soft creak of the door closed behind her. The light outside had dulled into a dusky gold, casting long shadows across the polished wood floors of her private chamber.

  Lyra let out a breath she hadn't realized she'd been holding.

  Still dressed in her casual tunic and short cloak from earlier, her parasol tucked under one arm, she dropped onto the edge of her bed with a little bounce.

  Then—

  A giggle.

  Light. Real.

  She tried to hide it behind the back of her hand, shaking her head.

  Lyra (to herself):

  "What the hell was that today..."

  Her lips curled despite herself.

  Iver.

  Stoic, grumpy, boring as a brick wall—and yet... there was something about him. Something that made her nervous and calm all at once.

  She let her body fall back onto the bed, arms splayed, parasol sliding off to the floor. Her gaze drifted to the wooden ceiling above, where shadows of swaying branches danced gently through the window.

  Lyra:

  "You idiot..."

  She sighed. Her voice was soft, almost fragile—foreign to her own ears.

  Then—a knock.

  No. Not a knock.

  A tap.

  Sharp.

  Intentional.

  Like nails rapping against hollow bone.

  Lyra's body stiffened.

  The air in the room shifted.

  She rose slowly, brushing down her tunic. Her giggle was gone. Her grin—gone.

  When she opened the door—

  The scent of scorched wood and iron spilled in.

  A figure stood in the hallway, silhouetted by flickering candlelight.

  Sierra of the Ash Thorn.

  A fellow Aequinox.

  Younger. Wilder. Crueler.

  With sharp eyes like a blade pulled from fire. Her red-black cloak was scorched at the hem, ash dusting her shoulders. A jagged brand marked her collarbone, half-hidden by a leather strap.

  Sierra (smirking):

  "Aw. Were you smiling just now, Thorn-Sister? How adorable."

  Lyra's lips tightened.

  Lyra:

  "To what do I owe the smell of bonfires and bad decisions?"

  Sierra (stepping in, uninvited):

  "Relax. I was just in the neighborhood. Thought I'd check on our little infiltrator."

  She glanced around the room, eyes scanning the modest decor—the stray ribbon on the mirror, the still-glowing lantern, the parasol on the floor.

  Then her gaze snapped back to Lyra.

  Sierra:

  "...You've been having fun, haven't you?"

  Lyra leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, face blank.

  Lyra:

  "If you're implying something, say it. I don't do guessing games with pyromaniacs."

  Sierra (grinning):

  "The Shepherd sent me. Said to check if you're still on mission. Or..."

  She stepped closer.

  Sierra (low, venom sweet):

  "...if you're falling."

  A long silence.

  The only sound was the soft crackle of candlelight in the hall.

  Lyra didn't flinch. But her fingers curled slightly at her side.

  Lyra:

  "I'm embedded. Gathering intel. You can tell the Shepherd I haven't lost my edge."

  Sierra (tilting her head):

  "Strange. He says your reports are getting... thin. Vague. Almost like someone's editing them before sending."

  She stepped in even closer now, close enough for Lyra to smell the embers on her breath.

  Sierra (whispering):

  "Or maybe... you're hoping they never reach us at all."

  Lyra's expression darkened, but her voice stayed cool.

  Lyra:

  "You want to threaten me? Here? In public? Be my guest. But let me remind you—unlike you, I blend."

  Sierra (laughing):

  "Oh, I'm not here to fight, petal. Not yet. Just to remind you of who you are."

  She brushed a finger across Lyra's chin.

  Sierra:

  "You're not one of them. You're one of us."

  A moment passed.

  Then, her grin returned like the flick of a match.

  Sierra:

  "Do send my regards to your boyfriend."

  She turned, leaving nothing but a trail of heat and charred dust in her wake.

  The door closed.

  Silence fell.

  Lyra stood there for a long moment—stone still. No smile. No mask.

  Just her, and the empty hum of guilt beneath her ribs.

  She sat back down on the bed.

  The parasol rolled slightly against her foot.

  And for a fleeting moment...

  She didn't know which side of the flame she was really on anymore.

  ...

  Castle Guest Wing – Lounge of Stray Dawn

  Evening, shortly after Iver returned.

  The moment the heavy oak door creaked open—

  BOOM.

  A pillow struck Iver square in the face.

  Josh (grinning like a demon):

  "TRAITOR TO THE BROTHERHOOD!"

  Iver (deadpan, brushing the pillow off):

  "...Hello to you too."

  Cedy (snorting):

  "Welcome back, Lover Boy. How was the date with Miss Mysterious?"

  Iver (frozen mid-step):

  "...What?"

  Rej (leaning over the couch dramatically):

  "Cedy spotted you, you sly dog. Lithrium's finest date spots, one after the other? Really?"

  Marian (smirking from the side):

  "You even bought her snacks. I saw the crumbs on your collar."

  Josh (mock betrayal):

  "And to think, I taught you everything you know about flirting—only for you to use it against me."

  Iver (shutting the door, sighing):

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  "It wasn't a date."

  Rica (arms crossed, amused):

  "You let her drag you across half the capital."

  Elly (giggling softly):

  "And you didn't run. That counts for something."

  Lily (grinning):

  "So what did she do? Pull the 'oops I tripped' move?"

  Iver (sitting down heavily):

  "She bought me flower-shaped candy and declared it a date before I could finish a sentence."

  Cedy (laughing):

  "Aww, that's her style alright."

  Jonax (sipping tea):

  "I give it a 7.3 on the Fluster Scale."

  Josh:

  "Iver's stoic points took a direct hit."

  Marian:

  "A critical hit."

  Laughter roared around the room.

  It was warm. Familiar. Their tradition. Whenever one of them got caught in a moment even remotely romantic, the "Ritual of Stray Dawn" began—chaotic interrogation, wild assumptions, reenactments, and ranking systems.

  But not everyone was laughing.

  Kristie sat quietly on the far end of the couch.

  She gave a smile here and there—small, polite chuckles when jokes landed—but it didn't reach her eyes. She wasn't adding her usual jabs or echoing Josh's chaos. No snark. No side-eyes.

  Just quiet.

  She poked at a fruit on her plate with a fork.

  Rica (noticing):

  "You okay over there, Kris?"

  Kristie (smiling faintly):

  "Huh? Oh. Yeah. Just... sleepy, I guess."

  Ren, who had been watching silently, narrowed his eyes.

  He noticed the way her shoulders were too still. The way her fingers toyed with the hem of her sleeve. Like she was holding something in. Holding back.

  But he said nothing—for now.

  Back in the center of the chaos—

  Josh (standing on a chair):

  "I propose a vote! Is Iver dating Lyra or being kidnapped through cuteness?"

  Cedy (hand up):

  "Kidnapped. But he didn't resist. So guilty."

  Elly:

  "Seconded!"

  Rica (playfully):

  "Iver. Verdict?"

  Iver (grumbling):

  "I have no comment."

  Marian:

  "Aww, look at that. He's flustered. That's basically a confession!"

  Kristie (softly):

  "She flirts like she's not afraid of consequences."

  Everyone turned to look at her for a moment.

  Cedy:

  "Whoa, poetic."

  Josh:

  "That sounds like a compliment, Kristie. You okay?"

  Kristie blinked.

  Kristie:

  "...Yeah. Just a thought. I'm gonna head out for air."

  She rose quickly, leaving her half-eaten plate behind, and slipped out before anyone could stop her.

  The room fell quieter.

  Ren exchanged a glance with Lily, who looked equally concerned.

  Cedy (softly):

  "...She's usually the loudest one during these things."

  Iver (watching the door she left through):

  "...Did I do something wrong?"

  Ren didn't answer.

  But in the back of his mind, something twisted.

  The laughter resumed, slowly. Josh cracked another joke. Jonax started impersonating Iver's stone-faced expression mid-date. Marian grabbed a pillow and re-enacted the moment Lyra pulled Iver by the arm.

  Castle Balcony – Moments Later

  The stars above Lithrium shimmered faintly—blurred slightly behind the thin veil of mist gathering under the pale moonlight. The marble balcony stretched wide, open to the quiet winds, draped in royal banners that fluttered like sighs in the stillness.

  Kristie leaned on the cold stone railing, elbows resting, head bowed. The wind tugged gently at her hair. Her eyes stared out—but not at the city.

  At nothing, really.

  Just... letting it sting.

  She didn't even hear the footsteps—until the familiar voices broke the silence.

  Elly (softly):

  "...We figured you'd be here."

  Kristie blinked, but didn't turn.

  She just gave a small hum. Nothing more.

  Then came Lily, steps slower, her gaze gentle.

  Lily:

  "Mind if we join?"

  Kristie sighed, then nodded once.

  Kristie:

  "It's a free balcony."

  The two girls stepped beside her, flanking her like silent guards—guarding nothing but unspoken thoughts.

  The city below flickered like stars that had fallen to earth.

  A beat of silence passed.

  Then—

  Elly (quietly, trying to smile):

  "You ever just... joke about something too often it stops being funny?"

  Kristie (still staring ahead):

  "...Yeah."

  Elly:

  "We kept calling Ren my 'boyfriend' for laughs, you know? Thought maybe he'd play along once. Or laugh. Or roll his eyes and call me annoying."

  She let out a breath.

  Elly:

  "But instead... he just goes silent. Switches topics. Like he's trying not to hear it."

  Lily (softly):

  "He hears it. That's the problem."

  Elly turned to her, surprised.

  Lily:

  "Ren's not cold because he doesn't care. He's cold because he does—and he's scared of what happens if he lets any of us get close."

  Kristie let out a bitter chuckle.

  Kristie:

  "Great. So we're all just orbiting around a star that keeps pushing us back with gravity."

  Lily (smiling faintly):

  "Sounds like Ren and Iver."

  She paused, then her smile dimmed.

  Lily:

  "...When he went berserk at the throne room, and froze the air like it was grieving for him—I yelled at him."

  The other two looked at her.

  Lily:

  "I shouted, 'Hey, broken-lover boy, time to wake up!'"

  She gave a sad little laugh.

  Lily:

  "But he didn't even blink. Like I wasn't even there. Like I was calling to someone who had already walked too far to hear me."

  Elly leaned her head on her arms.

  Elly (murmuring):

  "Do you think... we're being selfish?"

  Kristie:

  "For liking someone?"

  Elly:

  "For hoping they'd look back."

  The wind brushed over them like a sigh.

  Lily hugged herself, eyes locked on the lights of Lithrium.

  Lily:

  "...Sometimes I think it'd be easier if I hated him."

  Kristie (quietly):

  "Yeah. Same."

  Elly (small voice):

  "But then he does something small. Something so... him. Like saving a scared child. Or remembering what kind of tea I like. And it's like..."

  She closed her eyes.

  Elly:

  "...How do you stop loving someone who never even tried to make you love them?"

  The girls fell into silence again.

  Not the kind that demanded answers.

  Just one that knew.

  That understood.

  Three hearts standing side by side—each quietly cracking in places no one else could see.

  Finally—

  Kristie (softly, almost a whisper):

  "...I saw him today. With her. Lyra."

  Lily and Elly didn't interrupt. They waited.

  Kristie:

  "I spied on them. Cedy followed, I just... tagged along. Thought it was funny. At first."

  She gripped the stone a little tighter.

  Kristie:

  "But then I saw the way she laughed at his jokes. The way he didn't pull away. Not immediately."

  A long breath.

  Kristie:

  "I wasn't angry. Not really. Just... jealous. And I hated that I felt that way."

  She closed her eyes.

  Kristie (softer):

  "I didn't even know I liked him like that... until I saw him smiling with someone else."

  Neither of the girls said anything. They didn't need to.

  They understood.

  Lily (finally):

  "...We're all in love with someone who doesn't look back."

  Elly:

  "Or looks past."

  Kristie (half-laugh, half-ache):

  "And here we are. Girls on a balcony. Crying about boys who couldn't see what's in front of them."

  They all chuckled at that.

  Not because it was funny.

  But because it hurt.

  The wind passed again, colder now.

  And for a moment, the world felt quiet. Real.

  Like time had stopped just for the three of them to bleed safely.

  Elly (gentle):

  "...We'll be okay, right?"

  Lily (nodding):

  "Yeah. We will."

  Kristie:

  "Even if they never look?"

  Elly (smiling sadly):

  "Then we'll just have to keep walking until someone finally sees us."

  They leaned against one another, side by side, no words left to say.

  And the moon, high above them, watched over three girls—

  Tired.

  Loving.

  And still waiting for the kind of love that sees them back.

  ...

  Castle Corridor — En Route to the Conference Hall

  Their boots echoed faintly on the polished stone floor, the hallway bathed in morning light from tall windows, framed in gold and deep blue. Castle servants passed with hushed steps and lowered eyes. The air felt dignified. Too dignified for how uneasy Ren felt.

  Rica walked slightly ahead, her sharp eyes scanning the path, hands clasped behind her back. She always walked like she belonged in command—even when she didn't want the throne.

  Ren's steps were quieter, more contemplative. He caught up, hands buried in his coat pockets.

  Ren (low):

  "You've been watching her too."

  Rica didn't look at him, but the edge of her lip tugged upward faintly.

  Rica:

  "Who, Kristie? She's not subtle."

  Ren (shaking his head):

  "No. Lyra."

  That name made Rica pause—only for a second—but in her silence, something hung there.

  Unspoken.

  Shared.

  Rica:

  "...Yeah. I have."

  She resumed walking, slower now.

  Ren:

  "She's too polished. Like a performance with no slips. Even when she jokes, it's controlled."

  Rica (thoughtfully):

  "She reads people too easily. Knows what to say, when to say it, and how much of herself to reveal. Always just enough to seem harmless."

  Ren:

  "And just mysterious enough to make you curious."

  They turned a corner. The doors to the council wing loomed ahead, flanked by guards with silver-etched halberds.

  Rica (quiet):

  "You think Iver suspects anything?"

  Ren shook his head.

  Ren:

  "If he does, he's buried it under... something else. He trusts her. I think he might even—"

  Rica:

  "Feel something?"

  Ren didn't answer. He didn't need to. Rica's words hung in the air, heavy.

  Rica:

  "I noticed it. That little shift. The way he listens when she speaks. The way he relaxes around her—even when he's clearly annoyed."

  Ren (softly):

  "And it's dangerous."

  They stopped for a moment at a narrow alcove—a place between destinations.

  Ren leaned against the wall. Rica stood across from him, arms crossed.

  Ren:

  "Because if she is who we fear she is, he's already compromised."

  Rica:

  "...You're not wrong."

  A beat passed.

  Ren (gaze low):

  "And Kristie's been... different lately. Quiet. Withdrawn."

  Rica (carefully):

  "You think it's about Iver?"

  Ren:

  "I didn't. But now I'm not so sure. Iver's clueless about it. But I know what it looks like when someone tries to hide they're hurting."

  Rica (murmuring):

  "She looked at Lyra today like she was standing behind glass. Close enough to see. Too far to stop anything."

  Another silence. This one tighter.

  Rica:

  "Iver has always carried weight for us. The calm one. The one who takes the killing cleanly."

  She looked at Ren.

  Rica:

  "If Lyra is part of something dangerous... and he falls because of her..."

  Ren (coldly):

  "Then I'll be the one to pull him out."

  Rica (firm):

  "No. We will."

  They locked eyes, the quiet understanding between two who've fought long enough to read shadows before they fully form.

  Ren (after a pause):

  "...Do we tell him?"

  Rica:

  "Not yet. No proof. No trail. Just instincts."

  Ren (soft):

  "And instincts won't hold in a court. Especially not against a smile like hers."

  Rica gave a dry, humorless chuckle.

  Rica:

  "Especially not when he's already looking at her like she's the first real color he's seen in a long time."

  They both turned again, the golden doors to the conference chamber within reach now. Rica's voice dropped into something resolute.

  Rica:

  "We keep watching. Quietly. And if she slips..."

  Ren (nodding):

  "Then we move."

  They walked forward again, side by side. As leaders. As protectors.

  The weight of their silent decision trailing behind them like shadows in the sunlight.

  Poll time! The “Most Dense Award” goes to…? Winner gets a lifetime supply of missed signals and awkward pauses.

  


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