[14:38, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li: first time in 10 years frozen [14:57, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li: “Es ist eine Sauerei mit dem Sterben?, sagte er. ?Man wird einfach weniger mit der Zeit. Bei dem einen geht es schnell, beim N?chsten kann es dauern. Von der Geburt an verlierst du eines nach dem anderen: zuerst einen Zeh, dann einen Arm, zuerst einen Zahn, dann das Gebiss, zuerst eine Erinnerung, dann das ganze Ged?chtnis und so weiter und so fort, bis irgendwann nichts mehr übrig bleibt. Dann hauen sie den letzten Rest von dir in ein Loch und schaufeln es zu und fertig.??Und es wird eine K?lte sein?, sagte Egger. ?Eine K?lte, die einem die Seele zerfrisst.? Der Alte sah ihn an. Dann verzog er seinen Mund und spuckte knapp an seinem Pfeifenstiel vorbei auf den hinterh?ltigen Zirbelkiefersplitter, an dessen R?ndern Grollerers Blut klebte. ?Bl?dsinn. Gar nichts wird sein, keine K?lte und schon gar keine Seele. Tot ist tot und aus. Danach gibt es nichts mehr, auch keinen lieben Gott. Weil wenn es einen lieben Gott g?be, w?r sein Himmelsreich nicht so verteufelt weit weg!” Excerpt From Ein ganzes Leben Robert Seethaler This material may be protected by copyright. [16:06, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li:
[16:45, 13/01/2026] PA_summary: The speaker (likely a person in a complex family and psychiatric/IV context in Switzerland) vents frustration in a long, stream-of-consciousness monologue. Key themes and points:
1. Family naivety & vulnerability to scams
? The speaker shares an (apparently ongoing) example of an obvious online scam (possibly involving ETH/crypto or similar), expressing astonishment that his parents — especially his father — might fall for it.
? He describes his parents as extremely gullible: e.g., they once gave away their password during a fake “test” by WSL/ETH authorities.
? He sees this as characteristic of a broader pattern: his family (especially women like mother, godmother/patentante) is dependent, manipulative in relationships but incapable of independent action, …
[16:48, 13/01/2026] PA_summary: The speaker (likely the channel owner) shares several personal updates and reflections, mixing positive personal developments with frustration about changes in the social services system in their region (likely Toggenburg area in Kanton St. Gallen, Switzerland, with references to places like Wattwil).
Positive / Motivating News
? They achieved a personal milestone on YouTube: Due to high watch hours (probably mostly self-views plus some from a Ukrainian psychologist), they were offered the YouTube Studio App. This opens (theoretical) options like buying 500 subscribers and monetizing the channel, as well as uploading directly via Studio — seen as a big success and very motivating, even if it doesn’t change much practically.
? They mention sharing an excerpt from Robert Set?l? (likely a reference to spiritual/philosophical content), which supports their personal “proof of God” — the idea that the “Kingdom of Heaven” exists already now, not only after death.
? Thanks to a recent psychiatrist visit, they felt motivated enough to go out on inline skates again (something they might not have done otherwise).
Main Negative / Frustrating Topic: Abolishment of Social Counseling Services
? The core complaint is that the Sozialberatung (social counseling/advice services) has been completely abolished (“ganz abgeschafft”) in their local/regional context. This concerns integration support, coaching, and help setting up life improvements — services that were promised in 2021 but are now explicitly no longer offered.
? Personal involvement/history:
? Previously, Mr. Schneller was the head of the social counseling unit.
? Conflicts arose (e.g., Mr. Rava from the regional counseling center wasn’t even allowed to collaborate with Schneller in the speaker’s case), which almost led to overload.
? Schneller then moved to another location.
? Other staff (e.g., Mrs. Alt, originally from Sargans) and services in places like St. Gallen or Wattwil are affected or no longer available in the same way.
? The psychiatrist confirmed this change clearly and in writing (especially regarding the speaker’s family system issues).
? The speaker connects this to broader personal conflicts (e.g., godfather Beat Küchler, called “Arschloch Onkel Doktor”, and their father who doesn’t speak to them). They compare the system’s rigidity to a family therapist’s attitude (“das geht so nicht”).
? Limited remaining options: They can now only choose three therapy goals from the homepage (nothing deeply personal like incel topics or proof of God, which they never mentioned anyway) → get three sessions with a psychologist (or similar), after which it’s reviewed whether it makes sense to continue.
Overall Tone & Broader Criticism
? The speaker views this as a complete failure of the system (“total komplett versagen”). They blame political levels: the cantonal council (“Kantonsrat”), government council (“Regierungsrat”), and health department — they simply don’t want it differently. There are open job postings, but the services have been dismantled.
? They feel this makes their investment in a (private?) social worker even more valuable, as such professionals are rare. They emphasize how important such accompaniment is, especially in youth (referencing examples like colleague Matthias or others connected to theater/Beat in Einsiedeln).
? Because of this deterioration, they wrote again to “Pierberatung” (possibly a typo or specific counseling service).
In short: The video is a personal vlog-style update celebrating small YouTube progress and motivation from psychiatric support, while heavily criticizing the apparent dismantling of local social counseling services in their area — once promised for integration/coaching, now officially unavailable, leaving only very limited short-term psychological sessions. The speaker sees this as politically intended neglect.
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[22:15, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li: [22:15, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li: [13/01, 20:52] Urs-Li: Leviathan (Julien Green) – Wikipedia [13/01, 20:53] Urs-Li: is there another book about the topic and how to deal with it because this is one is dark (and the above kind of girl does not read it before it is too late) [22:15, 13/01/2026] Urs-Li:
Leviathan (frz.: Léviathan) ist der Titel eines 1929 publizierten Romans von Julien Green. Erz?hlt wird die Liebes-Obsession des Privatlehrers Paul Guéret zu der W?scherin Angèle, die zu einer Trag?die führt, als er erf?hrt, dass sie eine Prostituierte ist. An den auf den Titel bezogenen d?monischen Handlungen beteiligt sind vor allem z...
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hast Du vielleicht eine Idee für Lebensinhalt mit kaputtem Rücken?
“Do you maybe have an idea for a life purpose with a broken back?”