Consciousness came back to Evelyn slowly, pulsing in steady heartbeats. Her eyes opened, blinking at the faint sunlight peeking through the window blinds. Soon, her muscle memory kicked in, and she reached for her phone on the bedside table – but it wasn't there. She felt something soft and squishy on her hand, the texture the same as skin.

  It took a while before her vision cleared. 'Uni should be opening soon-' Even as she stared at the sleeping, naked Anora – her muscles proudly dispyed – she still thought back to their small apartment, her thoughts dissonant with reality. The urge to stand up and make breakfast was there too, as if she was still Alex.

  The arm around her waist pulled her closer, however, shaking off any delusions of her being back in her old life. She wasn't Alex. She wasn't in university. No. She was naked, lying half on top of her roommate. Her head rested on Ani's shoulder, body clinging to hers. They were both nude, wrapped under the bedsheets.

  'Me and her, we...' Her memories of yesterday slowly returned, fuzzy and confusing. She could remember Anora's hungry gaze, her weight over hers, the kisses on her neck, the mind-blowing pleasure- 'We did, didn't we?' A thousand emotions welled up inside her, one more confusing than the other.

  She rested her hand on Ani's abs, frowning. A look down the bedsheets confirmed her memories – her roommate had also changed, even if just a bit. A lot, actually, now that she considered its size. 'That was inside me.' She blushed, frowned, and went pale. Her body trembled just remembering it. Nothing could even come close to the pleasure she'd felt.

  A part of her felt ashamed. Another satisfied. Another aghast. It had happened all too quickly, hadn't it? One moment they were flirting pyfully, and then... To think that she and her would- she'd never even considered it possible. Did her roommate always see her that way? Were all their previous interactions not just joking? All the small comments, the flirting?

  She could panic – the urge was there – but she didn't. Instead, she circled her fingers over Ani's abs, thighs squeezing around her strong, muscled legs. Her skin tingled in pleasure, her chest aching. There was a hint of strawberry – an afterburn of it – left in her mouth, and it clouded her thoughts.

  The guilt of having slept with Anora burnt in the background, alongside a thousand more undecipherable emotions, but the moment she gnced up at her roommate's lips- all she wanted was to kiss them again. Feel them on her skin. 'That felt good.' She frowned more, repying the confusing memories of their night. 'We had a bit... too much to drink.'

  It wasn’t just a drunken escapade, however. She could still remember how she had wrapped her legs around her, puckered her lips, and bucked her hips up for more- somehow, after all of that, the embarrassment of having ‘lost her virginity as a woman’ never came. It didn’t even register. ‘It felt good.’ She wouldn’t lie to herself. Not now, not ever.

  She wouldn’t ignore how pleased she felt. Or how she liked cuddling onto someone like a pillow rather than be the pillow herself. Or how light her new body felt on Anora's arms. How freeing it was. Just as well, she couldn’t ignore the guilt she felt over sleeping with someone who wasn’t Amy – even though they technically weren’t dating anymore.

  And that wasn’t even coming close to touching the hornets’ nest that was her feelings over Vic – or rather, Anora now, her adventuring companion. She was a great friend. Annoying. Teasing. Horny. Lonely. Touched in the head. Needy. Funny. A walking mess-

  Slowly, the target of her attentions woke up. Anora blinked her eyes, wincing at the morning light, before gncing down at Evelyn. At the sight of her, something gleamed behind those eyes. Then, it was gone just as quickly, repced by a goofy smile and half smirk.

  Evelyn flustered despite her inner doubts, and her body unconsciously clung tighter to her roommate. She felt warm – just the right amount to ward off the morning cold without being uncomfortable. "You look pleased with yourself." She muttered, frowning at her stupid friend. "Awfully so."

  "Shouldn't I?" Was her only response. "I mean..."

  "I mean... what?" Evelyn quirked a single eyebrow, unimpressed. "Go on, finish that line – see what happens."

  Ani giggled, her chest rumbling and shaking Eve as she did. "Well, I feel good." She whispered, warm breath tickling her neck. "Don't you? I won't say I regret yesterday, only that I regret not making a move earlier-"

  "Earlier?" Evelyn poked her in the belly, annoyed. "I thought you've said you didn't swing that way?"

  "That way?" She ughed more, staring down at her. "You don't look that different now-" Eve poked her again. "Sorry, sorry. You look beautiful, I mean, and you're fun to be around-"

  "Woah there." Eve ughed, eyes squinting in confusion. "Slow down, yeah? Don't go professing your love that quickly-" She shook her head, going silent for a moment. Her emotions continued all over the pce, and she didn't even know where to begin untangling them.

  Her roommate also went silent, both staring at one another. The air seemed to hang heavy between them, cloyed by the scent of sweat and sex in the air, heartbeats echoing in sync. Moments passed like this before, finally, something changed in Eve's eyes.

  She stood up, untangling from her roommate only to put her legs around her, sitting on her lower abdomen. As she did this, the bedsheets fell over her shoulders, pale skin gleaming under the dim sunlight. The light made contours around her form, highlighting it into something almost ethereal in Ani's eyes.

  Then, as if natural to her, a soft smile came to her face while she gathered her thoughts. She could feel the warmth of her roommate under her, her new equipment instantly hard and pressing against her cheeks. Just the touch of it was enough to make her ache in need, phantom pleasures caressing her body. If she wanted to, she could just allow herself not to think – to indulge for a brief moment – and forget all her troubles.

  She was quite fond of Anora, and she wouldn't mind having sex as a woman again. It wouldn't embarrass her – it was just sex, after all, she could rationalize it. Not only that, but they also only had each other now. 'Alone in a strange world.' She could see the appeal to not think too much about it as she usually did. To jump straight in, consequences be damned.

  Still, she stared down at Anora. Her roommate had dited pupils, mouth hung open in that dumb, confused expression of hers. It was funny, almost enough to make Eve ugh. Hadn't they fucked just the other night? The anticipation and need in her roommate's eyes did not diminish one bit, however – if anything, it had only increased.

  They did get along quite well and – if the other night was any indicator – had a lot of affinity in bed. Despite it all, though, she still held herself back. Her doubts and fears, her wants and needs. She mulled over them, acknowledging everything. Her guilt over Amy, her unexpected attraction towards her roomie, her self-image over her own body and identity... it was a lot to unpack.

  It would take quite the time to unpack and process her own emotions. So, seeing her situation as such, she took a deep breath, recentering herself. She ignored her tingling skin, her blushing face, her unsteady heart, the ache in her belly... "I don't know how I feel about st night." She finally said, giving sound to her own thoughts.

  "It's not that I didn't enjoy it." She looked into Ani's eyes as she said this, meaning her words. "And I do enjoy your company. But let's consider it just that – one fun night – for now. A lot happened yesterday, and I'm still processing it... do you understand, Ani?"

  Her roommate did not answer, however. That same light reappeared in her eyes, just to disappear the next second. "I have a lot on my mind, and-" Eve didn't get to finish, though, and it wasn't because of Anora. Instead, a piece of parchment – one she was starting to get tired of seeing – materialized before her, obstructing her vision. "Oh, this again."

  sillyAnon