Xam_I_Am

  Jillian was sitting on the couch, totally immersed in her own little world, when her name suddenly echoed through the room like a thundercp.

  “Ah!” she squeaked in surprise, quickly turning around to see who the hell was shouting. And there, standing by the doorway, was Jason in all his glory. Her eyes widened in shock at his sudden appearance.

  Meanwhile, the TV was bring some low-budget horror movie with a couple making out in the stupidest pce imaginable, while ominous music pyed in the background. Jason’s expression was a mix of horror and confusion as he took in Jillian’s appearance.

  Her hair was haphazardly tied up, chocote ice cream smeared all over her lips, as an exfoliating face mask that made her look like a wrinkled ghost, and her eyes were red from the tears she’d shed.

  Jillian stared back at Jason, still processing the situation, when screams erupted from the TV as the teen boy got stabbed by a costumed serial killer.

  Jillian’s attention was diverted from Jason to the sound of the horror film she had on, but she quickly scrambled for the remote and switched it off. She smmed the tub of Rocky Road ice cream on the table and looked back at Jason, who was shutting the door behind him, but hesitated coming in further.

  “J-Jason, w-what are you doing here?” she asked, surprised and confused. Wrapping her bnket around herself a bit tighter, she stood up to face him. Jason stuttered slightly, trying to find the right words, but struggled to concentrate. Her rather disturbing appearance made it difficult

  “Uh, well, I came here to... talk to you and…,” he trailed off, unable to articute his thoughts properly. “Sorry, it’s really hard to have a serious conversation when you uhh... you know, look like that,” he said, gesturing awkwardly at her. Jillian gave him a puzzled look, waiting for an expnation.

  “What’s that supposed to mean? Are you really trying to insul-...?” Jillian said, about to get upset at him for possibly coming all the way here to rub salt in the wound. But it slowly sank in what Jason was trying to say when he motioned to his own face.

  “Oh, fuck!” she turned and dashed into the bathroom smming the door behind her. “Give me just a minute, please!” she called out as she rushed to the sink mirror to check herself out.

  “Y-yeah, no problem. Take your time,” he responded.

  The wrinkly face mask and chocote smudges around her mouth were quite a sight. When combined with her barely contained hair, her appearance was nothing short of a disaster. Her cheeks flushed with embarrassment.

  “I look like a soggy scarecrow demon that’s been eating mud.”

  Amidst her worries about how she looked, she gnced back at the door and wondered why Jason was even here. Mika had been overly tight-lipped about her morning activities, heading straight to work after returning home and taking a shower. Jillian was completely in the dark about what was going on, just hoping that her friend hadn’t murdered anyone.

  Jillian took off the mask and washed her face with some facial scrub in record time. She let her hair loose from its ponytail and used a comb to tame the mop of knotted curls. Her teeth clenched as it got stuck on a few times, yanking her hair hard, followed up by using a convenient bottle of eye drops that were almost empty to soothe her raw, red eyes.

  What felt like a minute to her turned out to be fifteen in reality as she primped and preened herself to look presentable. Still in her underwear, she wrapped the bnket around herself and quietly stepped out. Jason was now leaning against the wall near the door. He didn’t look happy at all. In fact, he appeared quite upset, the familiar sad puppy dog look that tugged at her heartstrings.

  She tried to calm the heavy thumping in her chest as she closed the door behind her. The sound caught Jason’s attention, and he looked up at her. Without the stuff on her face, he had no trouble meeting her gaze as she leaned back against the wall, looking a bit bashful, but kept eye contact.

  “H-hi...” Jillian started softly.

  “Hey...” Jason replied, and they psed into a long silence, just staring at each other, almost like a silent standoff to see who would break eye contact first.

  “I want to—” they both started simultaneously, then paused, realizing they had said the same thing at the same time. Both of them opened their mouths to say something only to realize they were going to speak at the same time again. The two ughed a little at the awkward moment, but it helped ease some tension.

  “Sorry, go ahead,” Jason said, motioning for her to speak first.

  “No, it’s okay, you came all the way here, please you first,” Jillian insisted. After a moment, he nodded and began.

  “I just wanted to apologize for the other day and crify what I was trying to say.”

  Jillian frowned slightly at the apology.

  “No, I’m the one who should be sorry. I didn’t let you finish, and let my insecurities get the better of me. I said something hurtful, I knew wasn’t true.” They exchanged apologies, each eager to make amends now that they were calm and actually thinking properly.

  They both pushed off their respective walls and moved a little closer until they were just a few feet apart. She had to tilt her head back to look at him, while he had to look down to meet her gaze.

  “We both screwed up in our own ways,” he suggested, and she hesitantly nodded.

  “I-I suppose,” her voice was a bit timid.

  “How have you been?” Jason asked, gncing over at the sofa where there were several balls of used tissues, pillows, and a tub of ice cream melting on the table. Jillian blushed slightly, pulling the bnket tighter around her, feeling embarrassed.

  “I’ve been... okay. Not great, but surviving. What about you?” she asked in return.

  Jason shrugged slightly. “About the same. I actually just got out of the hospital this morning.” Jillian’s eyes widened in shock.

  “What?! Why were you in the hospital? Did you hurt yourself? Did Mika hurt you?” She gave him a quick once-over. Grabbing his arm and lifting it, she examined the small scrapes and bandages all over his arms.

  She was expecting some obvious injury, but she found nothing major. The sensation of her soft hand on his skin was like a comfort that he had long forgotten, putting his weary soul to rest. He had to push away the thoughts of what it would be like to go even longer without.

  “Long story short, the doctor thinks there might be something up with my heart. I kinda, sorta… passed out right after you left,” he expined. Her expression shifted to one of horror.

  “Oh god… did I cause-“

  Jason cut her off, raising a hand before she could finish.

  “No, no, it’s not your fault. Not entirely, at least.” He didn't want her to feel bad, but still wanted to be honest with her. “It wasn’t just one thing. It was a combination. But there might be a deeper issue with my heart, according to the doctor.”

  Jillian still felt guilty that he passed out, more than likely due to the stress she had helped create. She wanted to ask him more, but she didn’t want to risk upsetting him further.

  “I’m sorry Jason… I never wanted to hurt you, I wish I could take everything back… If I had refused harder to come to dinner that night…God, I’m going to be the death of you, I just know it,” she murmured sadly as she stared down at the floor. But Jason’s hand was suddenly under her chin and lifted her gaze back up to meet his.

  “I don’t wish that at all... Even if it’s been painful, I wouldn’t want to go back to who I was before,” he whispered to her.

  Though she still felt a bit down, she gave him a shy smile, her cheeks warming from his touch and sweet words. His hand slowly moved away from her chin.

  “What about your heart?” She wimpered

  “When I’m back in Florida, I’ll see my regur doctor and get a referral to a cardiologist to hopefully figure things out.”

  Jillian nodded, but her expression was still filled with concern. “Are you sure you're feeling ?” Still not entirely convinced he wouldn't be better off without her. Jason chuckled softly.

  “I promise, I’m alright. It’s just something I need to get checked out ter,” he reassured her. She nodded again, though a bit timidly this time.

  “Speaking of Florida...” Jason began, capturing her full attention once more. “Um, well... there’s something I wanted to ask you...” He hesitated, his nerves evident as he gnced away several times, rubbing the back of his neck.

  “O-okay?” Jill said, a little nervous about just what he was about to ask her.

  “Jill, this is all completely new to me, and I’m not sure how things are going to turn out over the distance. But there’s something I have to say. I’ve been trying to work up the courage to ask you but…,” he skirted around the issue, avoiding directly expressing his thoughts. “It’s only been a week or so, but we’ve known each other since high school, even though those days weren’t really—”

  “Jason… Please, just say it,” Jillian interrupted, her face flushed a deep red as she felt her heart racing in her chest.

  Jason finally caught onto her expression, which was a blend of impatience and embarrassment, with a spark of excitement. He took a moment, sucking in a deep breath, steeling his reserve.

  “Jillian, would you go out with me? Even if it means we’ll have to do the long-distance thing for a bit? I swear I’ll come back as often as possible, or fly you out, and I’ll make sure to call or text you all the time,” he blurted out in one breath. Who knew asking someone out could feel like such a marathon?

  Jillian couldn’t believe her ears.

  “That’s funny, I could have sworn I just heard you ask me out?” she chuckled, unsure if she heard correctly. Jason rolled his eyes in response.

  “Come on Jillian, quit joking around. Just give me a yes or no, or tell me if you need more time or something,” he urged, his face feeling overly warm. But before he could continue, Jillian reached up and tugged on his nose.

  “Ouch! What was that for?” Jason protested, swatting her hand away.

  “Oh wow, it really is you,” Jillian excimed, looking surprised.

  “I’m not a fucking Scooby Doo vilin. Look, if you’re just going to tease me, then I’ll leave,” Jason threatened, rubbing his nose and crossing his arms.

  “No, no, no, don’t go. I’m just making sure I’m not stuck in some bizarre dream from eating too much ice cream and slipping into a diabetic coma,” Jillian said, sounding serious for a moment before getting distracted.“By the way, I’m mildly allergic to certain nuts, but I still love Rocky Road.”

  Jason sighed heavily, feeling frustrated as he realized his efforts were going nowhere.

  “I wasn’t prepared before, but give it another shot. I’m totally ready this time!” She fshed a cute smile as she spoke, eager for another try. Jason sighed heavily, looking at the floor.

  “Alright fine, Jillian, would you go—”

  “Yes!” she interrupted him again with a yell, throwing off the bnket to reveal her underwear-cd form.

  With an impressive leap, she unched herself at him, catching him off guard. He barely managed to catch her, his hands gripping onto her thighs. Before he knew it, he was face to face with the grinning redhead, the scent of chocote still lingering on her breath.

  “Really?!” Jason couldn’t help but blurt out, taken aback by the overly enthusiastic response.

  “Yeah, really! I can’t believe you actually asked me out! I was almost convinced I’d have to... you know what, never mind. I’m so proud of you!” she excimed, wrapping her arms around his neck and pnting a deep, passionate kiss on him.

  The intensity of the kiss surprised him, causing him to stumble back against the wall. Their lips locked in a powerful embrace for several long moments before they finally broke apart with a loud pop. She grinned at him, but her expression suddenly shifted.

  “Oh, wait, are you supposed to be avoiding heavy lifting with your heart or something?” she started squirming in his arms, trying to get him to let her down.

  Jason’s hands gripped her thighs firmly. “Haha, I wouldn’t really call you heavy lifting, but even if I wasn’t supposed to, there is no chance I'm putting you down right now.”

  Jillian let out a small giggle, then nuzzled her nose against his, their lips meeting repeatedly as they closed their eyes, lost in each other’s affection.

  “I’m sorry, Jason,” she murmured before leaning in for another kiss.

  “Hmm, for what?” he asked, unsure of just which thing she was apologizing for this time.

  “I know you...” she paused to kiss him again. “...Don’t just want me for my body,” she cooed before their tongues intertwined in a passionate struggle.

  “...It was just me being scared,” she confessed after a desperate gasp as he softly bit her lip. Jason released Jillian’s lower lip from his teasing bite, then sucked on it softly, releasing it before speaking.

  “I know, Jill. I was scared, too. Scared of being apart from you, afraid that I would screw up and lose you,” he confessed to her.

  Jillian tilted her head, diving in for the deepest kiss yet, their tongues intertwining again. Seeming like their conversation revolved more around kissing and teasing than talking.

  “I know, baby. It’s gonna be tough, but we’ll manage, I promise. Ah- Oh god, just like that,” she moaned, going back to using pet names as Jason kissed and nibbled below her ear.“We just have to make every moment count until then. Jase… baby, you’re going to drive me crazy if you keep doing that.” she whimpered as he fervently explored her sensitive neck.

  “I can’t help it,” he groaned, his hands moving to firmly grip her bountiful ass cheeks. “You taste amazing,” he admitted, unable to resist the temptation.

  “Ngh, then do it baby, drive me crazy for you!” Jillian gasped, feeling the heat spread through her body with every kiss, suck, and bite. She pulled Jason closer, her arms squeezing his neck, wanting more and more. Her hips moved on their own, grinding against him.

  Suddenly, Jason’s lips sucked hard, his teeth sinking into her neck.

  “Ah! Jason, w-wait!” Jillian groaned out her words in intense pleasure as her legs tightened around him, her body not actually wanting him to stop. Jason's hot breath blew heavily against the now moist skin of her neck.

  “What’s wrong?” he said through panting breaths, pulling back slowly, confused by her sudden request to stop. Jillian chuckled softly, trying to rein herself in, burying her face into his neck as she recovered.

  “Fuck, you might’ve just given me a hickey. My skin bruises pretty easily,” she told Jason, legs still wrapped tight around him.

  “Oh shit, really?” Jason replied, a hint of concern in his voice.

  “Mmmhmm, but it’s okay. I don’t really mind. It was worth it. I just hope my dad doesn’t see it,” she giggled. Pyfully she dove into his neck and sucked and bit on it even harder than he did.

  “Youch!” he said, trying to enjoy it, but it wasn’t quite his thing.

  Her lips and teeth popped off his neck as she leaned back in his arms.

  “There, now we match,” she said with a grin. Jason chuckled a little and nodded.

  “I guess it’s only fair.”

  After a few more moments of tender kisses, Jillian leaned her forehead against his, their noses and lips barely touching as they closed their eyes, content to bask in the moment between them.

  Their cozy moment together was suddenly interrupted, however, by the creak of the apartment door swinging open. The couple, resting against the wall nearby, each turned their heads to look at the newcomer.

  “Hey Jill, Mick mentioned you wanted to... chat...” A strikingly handsome man with a lean yet muscur build said as he walked in.

  Standing at least six feet tall, he sported a sleeve of colorful koi fish tattoos on his left arm and two sizable spikes piercing each earlobe. His hair was shaved on the sides, leaving a long, dark blue mohawk cascading down to one side, grazing his shoulder. A few names in fancy cursive adorned the left side of his head. His gaze quickly nded on the pair locked in each other’s arms against the wall.

  “Oh, um, hey Jill. Mick said you needed to tell me something?” The guy with the mohawk questioned, eyeing the two of them back and forth. Jason quickly turned a bit to hide Jillian’s body from his prying eyes. Jillian gave the new man a small gre. It seemed her supposed best friend was intent on testing her and Jason’s retionship.

  “Uhhhh, no, can’t say I need to tell you anything. Tell Mika she can rex and that I'm just fine. Sorry you got roped into this, Darren,” Jill said, surprising Jason, who watched as the guy just nodded, seemingly unfazed, understanding the situation quickly.

  “Yeah, that sounds like Mick being Mick, I think she just wanted to check up on you without seeming like she was,” Darren whispered loudly.

  “My bad for interrupting, dude. Please resume,” Darren said with a smile. Right as he turned to leave, a voice yelled from downstairs.

  “Stay the fuck outta my room!” Mika’s warning rang out.

  Darren chuckled, gave a quick salute, then closed the door behind him, leaving them alone again. Jason gently set Jill back on the ground, but she kept her arms around him, just moving so they were wrapped around his waist instead.

  “We should probably talk a little first,” Jason suggested, but Jillian didn’t seem too thrilled about it.

  “Talk,” she groaned, sounding a bit whiny. “I don’t really feel like talking. Can’t we just be happy with kissing and cuddling? Why mess with a good thing?”

  Jason chuckled at Jillian’s reluctance, but he could see the worry in her eyes.

  “Sure, but I think it’s important to clear up some stuff before we dive back into that,” he said gently, reaching up to run his hands through her hair, giving her a little scalp massage. She closed her eyes halfway, enjoying the sensation as she let out what almost sounded like a purr.

  “Hrrrmm, fine, I guess,” she grumbled.

  Jason removed his hands from her hair. And Jillian pulled him over to the couch where she was sitting earlier.

  “Hang tight for a sec I gotta stash the ice cream before it completely melts. Want something to drink?” Jillian asked, sealing up the tub of ice cream.

  “Water would be great, actually,” Jason replied with a small smile as he settled onto the couch. Jillian nodded and headed over to the bar’s freezer chest to put away the ice cream. She grabbed a bottle of water from the mini fridge, and walked back over to him, taking a drink before she handed it to him.

  Jason's reluctance to drink from a bottle someone else had. Partly due to his past trauma and partly just a general aversion to sharing spit. But that was pretty much a nonissue after all the kissing they’d just done. So he took a long swig of water before setting it down on the coffee table.

  Instead of sitting down with Jason just yet, Jillian hurriedly grabbed the bnket she had tossed aside and wrapped it around her mostly naked body. She shivered a bit from the cold now that she wasn’t pressed against Jason. Eventually moving over to the couch, she quickly climbed up next to him and snuggled up close.

  “So, lets talk I guess,” she said pressing against him, though she felt a little anxious about what he wanted to talk about. He pyed with the water bottle for a moment before gncing over at her. It had been just over a day since they st saw each other, but he couldn’t keep his feelings bottled up any longer.

  “I missed you,” he confessed, as their eyes met again.

  Jillian’s face lit up with a faint blush. “Aw, I missed you too,” she said softly, a gentle smile on her lips.

  Her arms emerged from her bnket, wrapping around his arm and pulling it tight against her, nding his hand between her thighs. Jason returned her smile. The warmth and softness of her body felt amazing.

  “I’m not sure how I’ll cope with being apart after this week ends,” he admitted, his voice tinged with nervousness. Jillian nodded sympathetically.

  “Yeah… me too. I wish you could stay longer, but I know you’ve got work and the majority of your life in Florida.”

  “I wish you could come with me,” Jason added, “but I know it’s too soon to move in together, and I wouldn’t want to take you away from your family.”

  Jillian listened patiently before responding.

  “Yeah... I’m not quite ready to leave them just yet. But that doesn’t mean I won’t visit you. I love the ocean, and the warmer weather sounds nice,” Jillian said with a smile.

  “Yeah, and I’ll come back and visit here when I can. I stayed away for so long because I was afraid of my past. But I can’t leave my mom alone for so long again. It probably won’t be week-long trips for a while, but I could probably do weekend visits from time to time,” she giggled slightly at that statement.

  “You’re gonna fly from Florida to here just for a day and a half, then fly back?

  He shrugged a little at her observation. “If that’s what it takes, then that’s what it takes,” Jason said as the two continued to talk about how they’d manage their long-distance retionship.

  Jillian felt her heart warm at how seriously her brand new boyfriend was taking all of this. How much effort he was showing just to see her made her stomach flutter. She’d never had a guy go to such lengths for her. Technically for his mom too, but still. It all made her feel so warm and fuzzy, she nuzzled her cheek against his arm.

  “You really don’t need to go that far, Jase. I appreciate the thought, but if you just shoot me a text now and then, maybe call me before bed a few times. Perhaps video chat so I can see your handsome face. I will be happy.” She smiled sweetly at him.

  “Sorry if I’m overreacting a bit. I just don’t wanna mess things up. You’re my first girlfriend, Jill… and I would like it if you were the only one I ever have.” When he called her his girlfriend and implied something even more serious, her heart did a little flip.

  “It’s alright, I promise. I don’t want you to bend over backwards just to make me happy. I’m already very happy. Just promise you’ll be honest and kind to me, and I’ll take care of you and be all yours forever,” Jillian murmured as she slowly let go of him and slid herself onto Jason’s p, pulling the bnket around them as she snuggled against him, running her hands up his chest before pyfully dragging her nails down.

  “I want to make you happy as well,” she added, her voice soft and alluring. Jason’s arms snaked under the bnket and around her back, rubbing softly.

  Jillian eventually looked up, and their gazes locked intensely as she moved up his body.

  “I want to care for you,” she whispered, her warm breath teasing his lips as they were barely an inch apart.

  “Hold you,” she continued, her words barely a whisper as her lips brushed against his.

  “And kiss you...forever.”

  With that, their lips met once more, bodies pressed together as the bnket slowly slipped away. Their kiss deepened quickly, lost in the heat of the moment, Jason’s arms wrapped around her tightly.

  They kissed for several long minutes, completely lost in their own little world. Jason’s hand slid up her back until he found the strap of her bra. He pyed around with it for a bit, exploring its design, while their tongues swirled around each other. Just as Jillian was about to reach back and unhook it herself, Jason beat her to it. With a quick flick of his fingers, he untched her bra. Jillian suddenly pulled back from the kiss, looking at him in surprise.

  “How did you...?” she started, suspiciously.

  “What? It’s not rocket science. It’s just two hooks on a strap. I just slid one side against the other,” he expined, giving her a confused look, more wondering why she pulled away from their kiss than anything. She gave him a narrowed look, shook her head, and promptly let it go.

  Jillian swiftly slid off her bra, revealing her modest chest once again to Jason. Tossing the bra aside, she felt slight surprise as Jason leaned in to kiss her colrbone.

  “Mmmm,” she giggled at the sensation of his lips on her skin, her breathing quickening as he moved lower.

  She had to lean back a bit to accommodate Jason’s height. Suddenly, she reached over, grabbed the remote, and turned the TV back on. She quickly found a music channel pying soft R&B and turned up the volume to drown out any other noises that might draw attention. Just in time, as she let out a sharp gasp as his lips found a hard excited nipple. They were a bit raw and overly sensitive after running in the fancy bra he just removed.

  Jillian’s hands twitched, moving her hands to hold the back of his head. Jason’s arms that were wrapped around her kept her close as he sucked on the lovely pink nub, getting a little rough even.

  “Nnngh, Jason, not so, Ahh!” She let out a small yelp as his teeth grazed along her nipple.

  She shivered and her fist clenched in his hair, tugging it a little harder than intended. To her surprise, he didn’t linger too long, pulling away with an audible pop. Gasping for air, she loosened her grip as her whole body felt limp. When he looked up at her, she leaned in for another deep kiss, their lips smacking together loudly. Her nails lightly scratched his scalp as they kissed, the sound of their lips and heavy breathing blending in with the music.

  When they finally pulled away from each other, Jillian whispered softly to Jason.

  “Jase, please. I don’t think I can wait any longer. I need you inside me, baby. Don’t make me beg,” she moaned greedily, flicking his lips with her tongue.

  Jason hesitated for a moment before he nodded in agreement at st. Jillian had been feeling his erection long pressing against his jeans and her butt, knowing he must be uncomfortable. Unable or unwilling to hide the wide smile on her face, she got up from his p and gestured for him to stand as well. Curious, he quickly stood up as she wanted.

  Jillian gave him a reassuring smile and gently pced her hands on his chest.

  “I’ve got you, Jase. If anything feels off, just tell me, okay? I want to make your first the best experience possible.”

  Jason wasn’t exactly thrilled about being fussed over, but he knew she meant well.

  So he simply nodded in response as she swiftly tugged his pin T-shirt upwards. She managed to get it most of the way off before Jason had to take over and pull it off the rest of the way. Meanwhile, she quickly unbuttoned his pants. His stomach churned a bit, but her fingers moved expertly, and soon her fingers slid under his waistband, easing both his pants and underwear down.

  Jason’s hefty cock sprung free as his pants slipped past his thighs. Jillian couldn’t help but giggle as she caught sight of it. Her mouth watered and her body shook with excitement, a clear sign that she very much liked what she saw. With a grin, she let the pants and underwear drop to the floor, watching him step out of the pile of clothes along with his shoes, leaving him fully naked, exactly how she wanted him.

  Jillian pulled her eyes away from his crotch to beam up at him before turning around and making her way back over to the couch, pulling at the bottom like a futon to transform it into a makeshift bed. His heart raced at the sight, a flurry of images filling his mind. Almost as if on cue, Jillian got on the bed, moving onto all fours, presenting her plump, round behind to him.

  “You can undress me too if you’d like,” she purred, her eyes sparkling with anticipation, reaching back she grabbed one of her cheeks, spreading herself for him, revealing shimmering pink lips under the thong.

  Jason’s erection noticeably twitched at her actions. His mouth watered as he nodded to her dumbly. As he got closer, he kneeled onto the bed and reached out with both hands, gently hooking his fingers on the cy bck panties that hugged her generously wide hips. Slowly pulling them down, a strand of her sweet, sticky essence clung to the fabric. Her lightly freckled, plump, pale lips, which barely concealed the delicate pink folds nestled within, were revealed to him. A small button peeking out at the bottom of her lips, and a small prickle of orange hair that was slowly regrowing on her mound.

  Jason swallowed hard as he felt a rush of desire and lust at the sight of her panties slipped down and pooled by her knees. Jillian maneuvered her legs out of the panties and spread her legs a bit more. Her soaked inner bia parted ever so gently. She kept her eyes on him the whole time, the feel of his hungry eyes on her most private of areas made her tremble with excitement and a small amount of worry.

  “Does it look alright to you?”

  It was the first time he had such an intimate view of her pussy in the light. So she couldn’t help but wonder if he liked what he saw, though the way he was almost drooling was certainly a good sign.

  Jason just nodded dumbly, his mouth agape in mild wonder. A relieved, happy expression spread across Jillian’s face.

  “Wow,” he murmured, taking a moment to gather his thoughts. “It... It’s beautiful,” he finally managed to say. The genuine compliment made her grin widen and her cheeks flush.

  “It’s all yours, Jase,” she said in a breathy voice, as he kneeled there, somewhat rudely staring. She couldn’t help but chuckle softly at his dazed expression. She eventually turned and sat down, crossing her legs and leaning back, propping herself up on her arms.

  Jason snapped out of his trance with the view of her womanhood becoming hidden, meeting her gaze again.

  “Well, are you just going to stare, or are you going to tell me what you want to do with me?” she teased pyfully, her crossed leg bouncing softly as it rested on her knee.

  His face turned a little red at her comment, realizing he had been stuck just staring at her for god knows how long.

  “Sorry, I got a bit carried away. Um, what do you suggest?” He asked, almost as if he were asking for a recommendation at a restaurant, earning another ugh from her.

  “Haha, rex, Jase. Trust me, I'm sure anything you say will be good. But I want another kiss first.”

  Jillian grinned, leaning forward and opening her arms for him. Jason smiled, leaning in to meet her halfway, wrapping his arms around her as their lips came back together. She lovingly wrapped her arms around his neck. Pulling him deeper into the kiss, she scooted back so he could get up on the folded-out couch. When Jillian was lying back, he used his forearms to avoid putting too much weight on her. She lifted her legs and wrapped them around his hips, urging him closer.

  Before Jason even realized it, he found himself pressed against her. Amidst the kisses and the newfound closeness, he was simply enjoying the moment. But Jillian had other ideas as her hand slid from his neck, down his side, and between their bodies. Her fingers carefully wrapped around the wonderful girth of his cock. Her delicate digits tugged and rubbed his shaft, losing herself in the delightful feel of the veins and ridges of it. His whole body tensed up at the sensation, but he rexed as he accepted it and continued kissing.

  His body responded naturally by thrusting forward. Jillian guided his dick towards her already soaked and waiting pussy. As he felt the sensitive head of his erection glide up and between her soaked valley, he couldn’t help but shiver with pleasure, the small pearl rubbing against the underside of his cock. The anticipation made him throb in her hand, and he knew he couldn’t resist much longer.

  Jason pulled back from the kiss, gazing into her eyes.

  “Are you ready?” he asked sweetly.

  Jillian smiled and couldn’t help but giggle a bit.

  “I’ve been ready for a while now, but thank you, baby,” she replied, moving a hand up to caress his cheek, which had a rather thick stubble on it now.

  His caring demeanor when they were intimate warmed her heart, as he gave her lips another gentle peck. Adjusting their position slightly, Jillian’s hand stroked his firm shaft tenderly, making his tip run up and down between her Labia.

  “I want you, Jason. I want you so fucking bad” she moaned out, her nails lightly trailing down his face and neck to his chest.

  Jason pulled back slightly, she looked at him oddly.

  “I want to make love to you, Jill. I want to cim you for myself in every way,” Jason said as softly as he could before he pressed forward. Jillian’s face flushed with his words as she smiled up at him. With her hand guiding him, he felt the pressure of his tip against her slick and soft entrance.

  Jillian let out a gasp and clenched her teeth. Wrapping her free arm around him suddenly, she dug her nails into his back, whimpering as her pussy was split wide open. Jason winced in pain but kept pushing forward, feeling like he couldn’t quite make his cock fit.

  When he stopped, Jillian urged him on despite the pain, “Please don’t stop, it’ll fit, just… keep pushing!” she moaned loudly, gasping for breath.

  After her plea she let out a small squeak as his dick slipped upward, accidentally hitting her clit.

  “Sorry, it slipped out,” Jason apologized. Jillian took this moment to catch her breath.

  "It’s okay...It's okay, really." Jillian reassured him. “But thanks for taking it slow. You’re fucking huge, and I’m smaller than most. So it might take me some time to get used to your dick, but I'm not going to give up. I will be your first Jason, I swear,” she said earnestly, looking into his eyes with a fiery passion.

  Jason simply nodded to the woman below him. “I want you to be my first, but I don’t want to hurt you. So if things get too intense, just...”

  “I will be fine. I want this and I'll do whatever it takes,” Jillian interrupted, her determination clear in her eyes.

  He admired her resolve, as mispced as it was. Jason leaned in to kiss her once more. As he pulled his hips, she guided him back to her already aching entrance. Taking a deep breath, she braced herself.

  “Give it to me, baby.” With that, Jason started pushing past her lips once more, stretching her to the limits. Gritting her teeth, she closed her eyes and tried to push her hips down as well. There was a slight burning sensation as he spread her wide. At long st, his tip slipped past her tight entrance. She hissed in pain, trying to suck in deep breaths.

  “Oh fuck... It’s in... Nggh shit, it’s so huge!” Jillian groaned, feeling a highly uncomfortable as her vagina adjusted to his girth.

  Sorry...” Jason said, noticing her expression of pain and discomfort. It felt like his tip was being cmped between a wet vice, so the pleasure wasn’t exactly there for him either.

  Jillian shook her head. “Don’t you fucking dare apologize. It’s a part of you, and I want it. Just…Just give me a moment to adjust, baby,” she requested, moving her hand to rub her clit to try and override the pain with pleasure while she got used to being stretched. After a few moments, she nodded.

  “Okay, I think I’m ready. Thank you for being patient. Please… keep going,” she commanded, though with a hint of hesitation. Jason leaned in a bit more, his cock spreading her depths further.

  “Ahhhugh!” she cried out as she was hit with another jolt of searing pain. Her lower body trembled, and Jason started to panic a little.

  “Jill, I really don’t think—”

  “Shut up,” she said through clenched teeth, trying to focus on her breathing.

  Jason flinched a bit when Jillian suddenly growled at him.

  “Sorry, sorry. Just...,” She took a deep breath, slow and steady. “I’m a bit rusty and never had anyone so big.”

  He wasn’t sure why she was telling him this, but he just nodded.

  “It’s okay, take your time. I’m not going anywhere.” Jason leaned in and pnted a gentle kiss on her forehead, moving a hand up to lightly caress her cheek. She gave him a strained smile in return.

  Jillian hadn’t expected this to be so tough. She wished she had prepped herself for his size beforehand. But it wasn’t like she got a heads up Jason would come back after such a bad argument, ask her out, then finally be ready to have sex with her. She wasn’t compining, though. This discomfort beat the hell out of the heartache she’d been suffering through before he showed up. His cock was way more satisfying than ice cream, even if it burned like someone had set fire to her crotch.

  Luckily, the pain finally started to fade again, and Jillian encouraged him to keep going. They repeated the process three more times, with Jason making a little more progress each time before Jillian had to stop him.

  When it finally seemed Jason would get all the way inside of her, she suddenly felt a sharp stabbing pain in her abdomen.

  “Ow fuck, fuck, fuck!” Jillian cried out, making Jason pull back.

  “Oh shit, What’s wrong!?” Jason asked, sounding even more concerned.

  “Yeah, that was my cervix. Nnghh… that fuckin’ hurt,” Jillian groaned, clenching her jaw, still feeling shaken by the pain.

  “Fuck, I’m so sorry, Jill, I knew this wasn't-” Jason started, feeling guilty.

  “Stop apologizing, you jerk!” Jillian shot back. “I kind of expected it might happen at some point. Just, you know, try not to go past that point next time, okay? I still want you Jason. You hear me?” She looked up at him, meeting his look of concern with one of determination.

  “So I shouldn’t go past this point?” Jason asked, pushing in to the edge of where he dick had been, seeking crification. Jillian nodded rapidly in response, still trying to recover.

  Up until now, he had been more focused on not causing any discomfort than on his own pleasure. But the wet, snug feeling around his dick was undeniably intense as her inner walls rubbed against his gns. He could feel her insides twitch as she adjusted to his size.

  “Okay, now pull out,” she instructed, and he carefully withdrew. His body reacted to the sensation, sending a shiver of pleasure through him. Jillian seemed to find some relief too, emitting a soft moan. Once he was completely out, her legs which were spread as wide as possible, shook badly. Her entrance gaped open, spasmed as it slowly recovered.

  “Alright, now push back in, but keep it slow, and don’t stop. Also, please remember not to go very deep,” she reminded him. He nodded in agreement, positioning himself at her entrance once again.

  With a slow, smooth motion, he slipped his cock back into her quivering tunnel. Jillian let out a moan of pleasure and pain as she felt completely filled by his girth, even without him being fully inside of her. Jason eased in halfway before pulling back, eliciting a soft groan from Jillian.

  “That’s good, baby, keep going,” she murmured, ying her head back and closing her eyes for a moment.

  Gradually, the discomfort fully faded, repced by intense pleasure as they finally made love properly for the first time. Her breath quickened as Jason’s rhythm picked up. She wrapped her legs around him loosely as they moved together at a slow but steady pace. Her hands held onto his shoulders, and soft moans escaped her lips, matching the rhythm of his loving thrusts. Unable to contain his own pleasure, Jason moaned out as her inner walls lovingly caressed his cock. He breathed heavily. His arms wrapped around her and pulled her into another deep kiss.

  After a while, Jillian did her best to move with his thrusts, teasing the fine line between pleasure and pain. She was craving every bit of him. Urging him to go deeper, even as risky as it was. Jason’s rge body practically smothered her, but that was just how she wanted it. She moaned happy little whimpers each time he pushed inside her. His speed increasing as time went on.

  “Fuck, fuck, fuck! Oh god, yes! Keep going, Jason! Fuck meeee!” she cried out, grateful for the music mostly covering their sounds. They found a rhythm that worked just right, his movements making it so he just grazed her deepest spot. Her sweet moans and cries of pleasure urged him to work even harder while her tight cunt worked to milk his shaft.

  “You feel so amazing!” he groaned, picking up the pace. “I never knew I could feel this good.”

  The slick sounds of their union were barely masked by their moans and the music. Jill had already cum once so she was extra soaked letting him move easier.

  “Deeper… please go deeper, Jason!” Jillian cried out, even though she knew it was probably going to hurt. She wanted, no, she needed him to fuck her, harder, faster, deeper. His next few thrusts were indeed what she wanted, and her whole body flinched each painful yet pleasurable time.

  “Ah! Ah! Ah!” she screamed out each time his cock grazed her cervix.

  “Hnngg... I’m gonna cum, I'm gonna cum!” He growled as his movements slowed, but were much more pronounced in motion. Her legs wrapped tightly around his waist, trying to keep him inside her.

  “Cum inside me!” she pleaded, “I want you to fill me with your seed! Give it to me, fill my pussy to the brim please!” she groaned in pure desperation. Her earlier words echoed in his mind.

  “You can’t get me pregnant.” A mix of resignation and honesty had been in her tone. Pulling out in time seemed like an impossible task that he wasn’t sure he could manage, anyway.

  “Fuck!” Jason excimed as he thrust as deeply as he could, causing her to shiver in another painful yet incredibly intense climax of her own.

  “Ahhhhhh fuuuuuuck!” Jillian moaned loudly as her legs around him violently trembled as she soaked his cock and the couch beneath them with an explosion of her juices.

  As Jason felt her tunnel tighten around his cock in orgasm, he let out a low growl, burying his face into her hair. Squeezing her body tight against him, he released deep inside her. Painting her cervix and walls with an excess of pearly white seed. The warmth spread into her stomach, prolonging her climax with each pulse of his release. Jillian bit down on his shoulder to muffle her cries, screaming as hard as she could into his flesh. Every part of her trembled with intense and unimaginable pleasure.

  Jason winced slightly from the bite but as his climax slowed, the st of his cum spilling out out inside of her, Jillian slowly released her teeth from his shoulder and her trembling became more noticeable.

  “Hey... you okay babe?” he asked, trying to catch his breath.

  Instead of answering verbally, she sucked in air and let out long slow breaths while nodding against his chest, her legs still tightly wrapped around him. When she was finally able to speak again, she only had one thing to say.

  “Mmm, s-so fucking full.”

  To pass the time as they held each other, slowly coming down from their amazing orgasms. Jason peppered the side and top of her head with kisses. Her shaky breaths turned into soft ughter.

  “I can’t remember the st time I...” she murmured, speaking between gasps before she paused, nuzzling her face into his chest. Taking a deep breath of his wonderful scent, she let out a contented sigh, leaving her sentence at that.

  “What can’t you remember?” Jason asked, genuinely curious.

  She pnted a kiss on the bite mark she left on his shoulder before pulling, fshing a weak but genuine smile up at him.

  “I can’t remember the st time I could actually smile after sex. I honestly don't know if I've ever smiled after before.” she admitted.

  Along with her smile, her eyes shimmered with tears.

  “I love seeing you happy and smiling, it's become my new favorite thing,” he whispered, smiling back at her as he nuzzled his nose against hers, and grazing her lips with his own.

  Her freckle covered cheeks, flushed with heat and she hid her face in his chest again, mumbling.

  “You can’t do that...” Her arms tightened around him.

  “I can’t do what?” he asked with a soft chuckle.

  She peeked up at him, still blushing furiously.

  “You can't say cute stuff like that, you jerk,” she replied. Jason couldn’t help but find her even more adorable as she acted like she were suddenly shy. It felt like their hearts were beating in sync as they gazed at each other. They both leaned in and shared another long, wonderful kiss. Sealing this moment in their memories forever.